بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

As-Salaamu ‘Alaikum Ma Bebies!

I never had a bf or husband that I didn’t think about cheating on except Zawji

In fact,

I

ALWAYS

HAD

TWO

BOYFRIENDS

I never had sex with two boyfriends

I mean when I had two boyfriends

I wasn’t having sex.

YET

❤ ❤ ❤

Nobody made me happy enough

TO

KEEP

ME

FROM

WANDERING

BUT

When I was with Zawji

THE

THOUGHT

NEVER

EVER

OCCURRED

TO

ME

I didn’t even notice other men or boys at that time

I don’t ever recall ever even thinking anybody was cute

While I was with him.

Today, when I’m attracted to someone

IT’S

Always because they remind me of him

Somehow

I am not always able to pinpoint how

BUT

They do.

They make me think of him in some way

It could be their bald head

Nubian physique

Maybe their name is Jamal

Mannerisms

I love the way he walks.

NOBODY

Walks like my

ZAWJI

I can tell him a mile away

He just makes me feel a certain way

Nobody ever captured my heart

LIKE

HIM

I wasn’t aware of it at the time

BUT

NOW

I know I

WAS

NEVER

SATISFIED

BECAUSE

I

WAS

LOOKING

FOR

HIM

It’s sad because nobody was good enough for me

NOBODY

I remember one of my boyfriends found out about the other one

AND

HE

MADE

ME

CALL

HIM

WHILE

HE

WAS

ON

THE

PHONE

(Remember 3-way? LOL)

And break up with him.

So, I called another guy

AND

Told him to act like he was my boyfriend

AND

I

BROKE

UP

WITH

HIM

!!!

But I had to learn

HOW

TO

NOT

GET

DISTRACTED

WHEN

HE’S

NOT

AROUND

But that’s because I’m just a girl.

We are not as focused as men.

Which is why The Holy Qur’an requires

TWO WOMEN

To stand as witnesses

In place of

ONE MAN.

It is what it is.

BUT

IF

WOMEN

WERE

EQUAL

WITH

MEN

We wouldn’t need them

Then the Nation would die out

Because men would not be able to reproduce

WE

HAVE

TO

BE

WEAKER

SO

We would need you

To Provide For Us

AND

Protect Us

AND

The Children We Bear For You

SO

I

SEARCHED

AND

SEARCHED

AND

SEARCHED

AND

SEARCHED

AND

SEARCHED

AND

SEARCHED

AND

SEARCHED

BUT

Couldn’t Find Anyone To Do Me Right

No one was faithful

SO

I decided if I’m going to be cheated on

IT

MAY

AS

WELL

BE

BY

THE

MAN

I’VE

LOVED

ALL

MY

LIFE

BUT, IRONICALLY

HE’S

THE

ONLY

MAN

WHO

NEVER

DID

❤ ❤ ❤

He’s ready for me to come back to L.A.

NOW

I guess I’m ready too.

I think Second-Line Season is over

He wanted me to experience

Where he comes from

His family anyway.

I dig it.

BUT

ANYWHERE

HE

IS

NOT

IS

NOT

WHERE

I

WANNA

BE

.

(Puffy Woods LOL)

❤ ❤ ❤

This is how Zawji feels about me

Ask him

❤ ❤ ❤