Category: The Blackwoman in America

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بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

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MESSAGE TO THE BLACKMAN

February 23, 2017

2:06 p.m.

New Orleans, Louisiana

As-Salaamu ‘Alaikum OUR Beautiful Black Bebies!

Why did your girl almost just go to jail again.

I’m so sick of being homeless, I was ready to go, but Zawji didn’t want my X to have the privilege of cuffing me.

Although he did literally

BUT

Not really.

I didn’t go to the shelter last night because it was A.J. Day.

I’m not going tonight either.

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Yesterday, I came across this Black-owned landscaping company that was planting trees in front of this big high-rise apartment complex they just built and I asked one of the owners if I could bury my hair under one of the trees.

I asked him which one?

He pointed to the one I was standing next to.

I wanted to bury them under the most vibrant tree, but the one I was standing next to looked like it needed a little help.

So, I blessed my hair and prayed for the tree and put the hair under the tree.

So, now everytime I pass that tree, I’ll think about Zawji because I did it on A.J. Day.

Then I went to visit Pops and I talked to Tootie too.

I stood on his statue and really had a heart to heart.

His tambourine has some letters engraved in it.

I wonder if they’re the sculptor’s initials.

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So, when I climbed down, I turned around and who should I see sitting on the park bench right across from Tootie?

Louis Armstrong’s doppelganger!

He had on the same thing he had on the last two times I had seen him.

We chopped it up (pun intended 😛 ) and then he left.

So, I sat on Pops lap and sang to him a little.

Then I pushed to the hideout.

It’s much warmer than it was the last time I was there.

BUT

The owner left me a gift.

It was beautiful.

But the wrong make and model.

I’m a girl and I don’t drive anyway.

I’ll give it to Zawji.

He can ride and I’ll watch. 🙂

On the way to the hideout, there were all these little beautiful black bebies.

They were coming from somewhere I think I know.

BUT

I came up on some Brothers playing basketball

AND

I wanted to play SO Badly

BUT

I just watched.

And was the girl.

Then went to the hideout.

SO

I got up this morning and went to “the beach”

AND

Watched the sun come up.

It was as exciting as usual.

Then I went and took a shower, ate lunch and debated where to go next.

I didn’t want to play the piano

BUT

Zawji didn’t want me to Library

SO

I went where the piano is and went to another room.

Why did I go in this room and some old gay Security Guard comes telling me I have to leave if I didn’t have any business there.

SO

I was like

I don’t have anywhere else to go

Might as well go to jail.

BUT

I could sense Zawji’s slight disagreement.

SO

I just kinda disobeyed the gay Dushawn (my x-husband) Doppelganger.

He got madder and madder

AND

I was just tickled pink.

He called it in

And when I wouldn’t leave

He handcuffed me and tried to take my computer.

Some cops like him are so crooked!

They steal.

But I made sure I kept an eye on my stuff.

Come to find out

He was the same cop who had tried to arrest me before

He and his Doppelganger recognized me.

They even knew my name.

But I didn’t recognize either one of them.

I’ve got it figured out now though.

All dark-skinned men are the enemies.

Skinny, fat, muscular, glasses, beards, clean-cut, &c.

I’m only talking to Brothers who look like Zawji from now on!!!

He was seriously trying to take me to jail.

But his supervisor called and asked him what he was going to do

SO

He had to say it

AND

I made him just give me a Warning.

His Supervisor was going to let him give me a ticket for trespassing

BUT

He was so dumb and cocky,

He told his supervisor he had it under control and pushed the ticket book away.

LOL

Donkey.

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SO

I’m at the library hoping these clouds blow away as quickly as they blew in.

I did not want to go to the shelter tonight.

ZAWJI’s Doppelganger offered me his tent.

BUT

Been there. Done that.

Well.

Not in a tent.

BUT

I might have to use the bathroom.

:/

3:15 p.m.

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MESSAGE TO THE BLACKMAN

FEBRUARY 22, 2017 11:20 A.M.A.D.-JAMAL

HAPPY A.J. DAY!!!!!!!

As-Salaamu ‘Alaikum OUR Babies!!!

Well, I don’t know about the “Basehead.”

He’s a little too cocky.

I saw him this morning.

BUT

I was talking to Zawji’s Doppelganger

AND

Yesterday, I stopped talking to him and went with the “Basehead” but the “Basehead” lit up a cigarette and made me feel real cheap.

So, last night Allah Told Me To Tell Him

“If you don’t stop smoking, you cannot come with me to L.A.”

BUT

I don’t even want to talk to him.

I saw him later after I left the Doppelganger

AND

I hid so he wouldn’t see me.

I understand.

It is difficult for Brothers to submit to a woman

BUT

If I’m leading you, you can’t make me mad.

OR

Try to lead me.

You’re going to find yourself on your own.

The Holy Qur’an says

“…leave you in your inordinacy, blindly wandering on.”

I’m going back to L.A.

With or without you.

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It’s going to be difficult saying “See you later” to Rock again.

He has Honey now.

I like to just say nothing and see you if I see you.

When I left L.A., I didn’t say nothing and the last time I left N.O.

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I’m just gonna Saviour’s Day

THEN

See what all the fuss is about mardi gras

AND

Push to L.A.

I hate parades.

I like Second Lines.

I hate marches too.

I just wanna go home.

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I wrote a poem last night in chapel.

EASY MONEY

Sex & Drugs

Not So Easy

To Lose Yourself

RESPECT

Your Intelligence

Your Decency

Two Things To Test The Best

Man In The Universe

How Are You Going To Support Your Family?

Pimpin’

OR

Slangin’

???

OR

Finding Your Talent

AND

Submitting To The Will of Allah

???

$$$$$

EASY

LIES

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

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MESSAGE TO THE BLACKMAN

MY WHOLE LIFE BEFORE I BECAME A MUSLIM WAS A LIE.
MY NAME WAS A LIE.
MY RELIGION WAS A LIE.
MY GOD WAS A LIE.
MY HISTORY WAS A LIE.
MY WORLD WAS A LIE.
MY SELF WAS A LIE.

THE TRUTH IS I WAS NEVER A CHRISTIAN.
I WAS NEVER AN AMERICAN.
THERE IS NO GOD UP IN THE SKY. NOT EVEN A BLACK ONE.
JESUS DID NOT DIE TO SAVE MY OR ANYBODY ELSE’S SINS.
HE DID NOT COME BACK FROM THE DEAD.
JOSEPH WAS HIS FATHER.
THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS A “HOLY SPIRIT.”
GOD DID NOT CREATE ALL PEOPLE. HE ONLY CREATED BLACK PEOPLE.
THE WHITE MAN WAS ONLY MADE YESTERDAY. (MADE – NOT CREATED)
AND HE IS THE DEVIL AND THE ONLY REASON WHY THERE IS NO PEACE.
HE IS GOING TO BE DESTROYED BY THE GOD OF THE BLACKMAN.
THE DEVIL HAS DECEIVED NINE-TENTHS OF THE POPULATION INTO THINKING THAT WE ARE ALL THE SAME.
LIES.
“COME OUT OF HER MY PEOPLE.” (REVELATION)

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MESSAGE TO THE BLACKMAN

February 21, 2017

10:02 A.M.A.D.-JAMAL

New Orleans, Louisiana

As-Salaamu ‘Alaikum OUR Beautiful Black Bebies!!!

I’m leaving you again

But I’m not gon tell you when

😥 😥 😥 😥 😥

 4:15 p.m.

Here we go again

I’m taking Raheem back to L.A. with me.

If he don’t make me mad.

I already feel my heartstrings stretching

BETWEEN

Here and L.A.

Rock is in good hands

SO

I know New Orleans is in Good Hands.

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I’m going to a wholesome Mardi Gras, In sha Allah.

Children are invited.

SO

In sha Allah

It will be decent.

I’m just trying to find a place where I can be myself in the midst of all the foolishness.

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THE STORY OF LUNSFORD LANE

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There are so many “leads” available when studying history. Here is another man I learned about who documented his story of bondage. At least bookmark it.

http://docsouth.unc.edu/neh/lanelunsford/lane.html

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FEBRUARY 20, 2017

11:04 A.M.A.D.-JAMAL

AS-SALAAMU ‘ALAIKUM OUR BEAUTIFUL AND BELOVED ASIATIC BLACK BEBIES!!!

Al Hamdulillah!!!!

The West WON!!!!!!

Yayyyyy!!!!

I had a fabulous weekend.

I can’t remember the last time I wrote but so much has happened I don’t know where to start.

In Journalism, we’re taught to get to the meat of the story first, whereas in creative writing, you build up to it.

I’m a Muslim creative journalist, so I’m gonna write about how Allah Wants me to write.

I ran into the “basehead”

I got on the mic at the shelter after chapel service when they asked if anybody had a testimony and I said:

“As-Salaamu ‘Alaikum! I just want to tell all the Black People there is a book called Message To The Blackman in America. Google it. You can read it online for free!”

LOL

I’m so gangsta.

That preacher lady didn’t know what to do!

But the “basehead” (who is not really a base head) saw me and after chapel came up and told me he had shook the devil’s spawn!!!!

I said,

Allahu Akbar!!!

Allah is the Greatest!!!

But there is something about Gods.

We are solitary people and we argue and battle for authority.

So, we got into it this morning and I’m at the library.

I don’t know where he is.

He finds me when Allah allows him to.

I wouldn’t be writing this if I was with him.

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I also found a store where I’m going to get my next pair of shoes.

Shoes are extremely important to Black People.

They tell you so much about a person.

Always keep your shoes fresh and cute.

They kept trying to hook me up with some baller niggas all day yesterday.

But I’m cool.

I’ve got the King!

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I had a good time tho.

I got a NBA Allstar bracelet and some beads but instead of beads they’re little basketballs. LOL

You know how people have names that signify what they do?

Alicia KEYS

Cheryl Swoopes.

Well, my mother named me A-NET.

So, I’m not ashamed that I like basketball anymore.

Or horses and guns like Annie Oakley.

Maybe Anet represents all the bad stuff about me.

Like Annie don’t wear no you-know-what’s.

I never would tell anyone my middle name growing up.

I hated it.

It wasn’t Annette like everybody else.

My mother told me she deliberately named me A-Net.

I never asked why.

I hated it.

A-Net.

But I’m never going to ask her, so I’ll just take it to mean that I’m a baller.

I’m not fighting it anymore.

I just do some stuff that boys do.

I don’t like it.

So, I do it in private.

Except play the piano.

I don’t like that sometimes I have to play.

Ball

Piano

But I go crazy when I try to not be myself.

One time I tried to not talk so much.

It almost drove me mad.

I’m always in the hospital anyway.

So, I’m just going to do boy stuff in private.

Or try to.

I can’t help the way I was made.

The things that have made me who I am

ARE

A

Part of Me

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I know who Rock is supposed to be with.

Her name is HONEY.

I was jealous at first.

But then again, I always am a little when Brothers who like me find the one they’re supposed to be with.

But I have Zawji.

So, I’m happy for them.

Sad for me.

But we’re last.

We have to make sure everybody else pairs up then and only then can we get together.

It is what it is.

He taught me something.

Zawji comes first.

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All-Star weekend was a trip.

I was outside the place they had the Legends Brunch

And there was this little red corvette stingray.

That was beautiful.

I sat there because the license plate was Louisiana but it said

GRAMBLING

So I know the owner was a Blackman.

I sat there and waited for him to come out.

Let me G where Grambling is.

I think it’s in the A.

BRB

It’s in Grambling, Louisiana

:/

I had no idea.

But It Makes Sense.

I feel funny

Grambling

Let me see where Spelman is.

Okay, Morehouse is not Grambling.

LOL

I feel better.

Kinda

I gottawriteabout Zawji

He went to Southern.

Football isn’t everything.

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The SisterCaptain almost went to jail yesterday.

Some fools from South Africa tried to get me in trouble with the po-pos.

Bitch lost her purse and told her man I took it.

Then here his big ass comes talking about

“Can I look in your purse?”

I was like

“Nigga please”

The police was right there.

I just boned out.

Damn foreigners

Black foreigners act like white people.

Calling the police on Niggas and whatnot.

And they will not let up.

So, I ducked out in the mall where I saw Jadakiss

Till the heat blew off.

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Man, I wish I coulda took a picture of that Vette.

But Zawji wants me to describe it I guess.

I was purty.

It had a black top so I’m positive it was a convertible.

It had a fleur de lis in the corvette flag symbol

Let me see if I can find a picture.

BRB

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I thought that shit was custom made

BUT

When I Googled it, I learned the fleur is part of the Louis Chevrolet family crest.

I like Chevrolet.

Not Ford.

Not Dodge.

Not Cadillac.

Not Chrysler.

I like Rolls Royce.

I like Honda/Acura

Not Toyota/Lexus

I like Mercedes.

BMW is okay for Blackmen.

Pontiac too.

I like Lincoln

I like Buick.

I like Bucks!

But I like them wild.

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In New Orleans, they have this thing called King Cake where they hide a little devil baby in it and if you find the baby it’s supposed to mean something.

Well, I think it’s all devilish, so when that devil baby fell out of my piece of cake I wrapped it up in an American flag and set that bitch on fire.

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MESSAGE TO THE BLACKMAN

February 18, 2017

10:22 A.M.A.D.-Jamal

New Orleans

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The Shore was kist

By sea and mist

TENDERLY

I can’t for get

How 2 ❤ s met

Breathlessly

Your Arms Opened Wide

And

Closed Me Inside

You Took My Love

You Took Me Sweet

So

TENDERLY

❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤

As-Salaamu ‘Alaikum

OUR
(Me and Zawji’s  😉 ❤ ❤ ❤ )

BEAUTIFUL

BLACK

BEBIES

!!!!

Doesn’t it seem like Panther should be with Catwoman?

They’re both BLACK

It would be

Purrrrrfect

!!!!!

Storm could be a GOOD Catwoman when their son grows up!

Cheah

Maybe Catwoman can control the weather

Nobody knows tho

They make her a bad guy!

They call me Catwoman

But I’m a GOOD Catwoman and would wear a WHITE faux FUR Catsuit

Under my White Garment

With white whiskers

And shades

Like These

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So there’s this Sister at the Shelter

At first I didn’t like her

BECAUSE

Her hair is pressed

But when I heard her talk

I liked her immediately

She is the only Sister who has the New Orleans accent

She dresses with style too.

Kinda

Not really Modest

I mean she wears pants

And I guess that’s it

She should cover up all the time too – her hair

She had on a skully last night with a fleur de lis

AND

Some houseshoes to match

They were knit

The houseshoes didnt have the fleur tho

She prolly just matched them up

That’s what I meant when I said she has style

Anway

She was talking about how one of the all-star teams rented out the restaurant she works at

Last night and tonight too

She said Houston and LA

So I figured it was the west

Even thoughh the lakers are not even in it SMH

Everybody just loves the Lakers

WE have like fifteen rings

Let me g it

Brb

SIXTEEN!!!!

AND

They are so proud of the saints and I think they’ve only one

Let me g it

Brb

Yup

2010

But anyway

They don’t know nothing about sports!

Idgi

This one devil even admitted

She don’t know nothing about football

AND

I started cracking up inside

I didn’t want her to know it was bball

LOL

😛

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Have you seen Nicky?

He looks so crazy

I mean I respect what he’s trying to do

(wake up)

BUT

He needs ISLAM

He’s doing the Black Power thing

AND

That’s like a stage most Muslims go through –

At least I did.

And he’s covering his hair

And all

Which is good

But

Have you seen what he’s using?

He’s wearing old grandma genie headpieces that Dre used to wear

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And head wraps like badu

:/

He’s so cute and political and intelligent and rich

BUT

He’s dressing very gay

Love you Nicky

But if you wanna cover your head

A hat (kangol, preferably)

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or one like LL or a ball cap, fedora, &c.

That a MAN would wear in America is BEST.

Don’t be copying the sytles of the brothers in the east

They’re too feminine.

Don’t wrap your head in anything, Big Homies

Just put on some type of hat whenever you are outside, please and thank you

And remove it when you are inside

Out of respect

For your women.

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I’m at the Riverwalk Mall

And I realize I like to workout

I like athletics and athletes and athletic gear.

But I’m still feminine enough to follow my guy around.

These women wear workout clothes and work out out in the public

They look like undergarments

And they should not be jumping and running around in front of men

I went jogging and used to play tennis and I love bball

But not in front of strange men.

They look like they are wearing my underclothes.

Put a garment on on top of it and you would be fine.

Learn how to SEW

I passed this store and the dress in the window was handmade

I could tell because I make my own clothes

If you make your own clothes

YOU

CAN

WEAR

GARMENTS

THAT

NO

ONE

ELSE

HAS

!!!

One of a kind, Bebe!

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There’s a cat at the shelter

His name is LION.

But I call him Errnge.

Because he’s an orange cat.

But in New Orleans you gotta say “Errnge”

I like him because Hakim likes orange cats.

Or he used to.

He looks like he would wear glasses if cats wore glasses.

Maybe they should make glasses for those white cats that have one green eye and one blue eye.

Hakim says they’re blind.

They remind me of David Bowie.

My aunt used to like him.

He always gave me the creeps.

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Like Prince.

But at least Prince was Black.

*sigh*

Anyway

Errnge looks just like a lionness

His face

Because he doesn’t have a mane

If he had a mane

Man!

He’s so friendly

He reminds me of one of my cats when she was pregnant

I can’t remember which one

But she could not get enough of rubbing against me!!!

Pregnant females need a lot of affection.

(And food! LOL)

Errnge is so cute.

Cats make me feel like it’s a good place.

Masjids are always supposed to have cats.

And homes

No dogs.

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I’m back to work.

I handed out a flier today.

I’ve been fighting it.

I feel like I’m supposed to just be concentrating on Z.

And let Blackwomen fend for themselves.

But HE wants me to keep at it.

They sure as hell need it.

We got to raise the dead.

Maybe I’ll go see ROCKMOND.

I hate COONS!!!

Not that Rock is a Coon.

He might be.

But I know it’s just because Nani put fear of the whiteman in his breastmilk.

I guess that’s why there are coons period.

FEAR of the whiteman Breastmilk

The Messenger (PBUH) taught us that

“Where you find the man that has no fear, there you find the winner!”

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1:09 p.m.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             

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MESSAGE TO THE BLACKMAN

February 16, 2017

1:15 p.m.

As-Salaamu ‘Alaikum Ma Bebies

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Sorry I can’t post the video.

My phone be trippin’

That was this morning.

I saw Jadakiss on my way from the river

He didn’t want to take a picture but he obliged.

He looked upset about something and you can see it in his face.

I said “Are you gonna smile or be serious?”

He said, “I always smile.” LOL

Let me see if I can find a picture of him smiling.

I G’d him a little while ago and I don’t remember one.

BRB

Okay, I saw three out of about a hundred.

But my phone be trippin, right?

So, I can’t post our picture.

You should see his face.

Poor Baby.

He’s smiling but he’s frowning at the same time.

I should’ve asked what was wrong.

He said something to his friend about an ATM card so I hope it wasn’t money.

I didn’t even tell him to read Message To The Blackman.

I haven’t been promoting my website.

I’ve been talking to people about Islam but not handing out fliers.

I told him about Dave Chappelle and Chris Tucker’s show that’s at the Saenger.

I made a vlog but my phone is trippin’.

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I saw my first dragonflies (3) today.

And it’s really warm today.

I hope that means Spring is here.

Rock said we were going to have an early Spring.

He saw a bee.

I didn’t know what that meant until I saw those dragonflies today.

We get bees all year round in L.A.

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I got to play the piano last night.

It felt real good.

I just wish I had more sheet music.

And my own piano.

I don’t like an audience sometimes.

I don’t think I’m gonna post that picture of Jada.

It’s not very becoming for him.

But I wish I could post my vlog.

This is the best I can do.

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And I think J wants me to post our picture

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As I was saying….

When a song says something like “Wrap my arms around you…” that should be sung by a man.

OR

“The blush on your cheek whenever I speak
Tells me that you are my own.”

I would not want no man that blushes whenever I speak!

Ewwww!!!!!! #niggayougay

So, I wouldn’t be singing that song.

Oh, and “Embraceable You” says, “Come to Mama, Come to Mama Do” So you know no man should be singing that. :/

Let me think of another one

Well, just listen and think carefully when choosing songs to sing.

Someone told me that some Brothers wrote India Arie’s first song and that really messed me up because it was like my anthem for a minute.

That is so confusing.

But I’m starting to realize that they do it all the time.

Errol Garner wrote “Misty” and that is DEFINITELY for a woman to sing.

I’m as helpless as a kitten up a tree?

Really?

You a man saying that?

Then I don’t want you.

I think it’s okay to just play it because you can always imagine a girl singing it.

6:08 p.m.

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MESSAGE TO THE BLACKMAN

February 15, 2017

2:20 P.M.

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(If it were true you wouldn’t have to say it!!!)

As-Salaamu ‘Alaikum Ma Beautiful Black Bebies!

I had a good night’s sleep.

It was weird because somebody came right by me, but he didn’t say nothing and I definitely wasn’t going to say nothing.

He let me watch him do his man work and I really dug it but I felt like I wasn’t supposed to know what he was doing.

Dang feminist made me take electric shop in school so I knew exactly how to do what he was trying to do.

He was connecting his truck brake lights to the back of a float.

I think I jinxed him

BECAUSE

It didn’t work.

I would’ve took everything apart and started all over until I got it to work but he may have been pressed for time because he just took it the way it was.

Probably wanted to hurry up and get it to wherever they’re going to decorate it. Mardi Gras is only two weeks away.

It was cool.

He almost left his power tool and I wasn’t going to say anything. Not because I wanted it (I didn’t) but because I didn’t want to compromise my position. I would have had fun with it. Maybe. It was a drill. I probably would’ve started taking stuff apart. LOL

I feel like I’m not supposed to know how to even drive much less how to use a power drill. It was so cool too because it had a light on it.

Girls are not supposed to know how to splice wires and put together cars.

I was remembering when my daughter was little, I bought her a Barbie Jeep (it was pink) but girls are not even supposed to know how to drive much less how to put it together. But I didn’t know then what I know now.

She’s supposed to be riding around with Ken or Jamal (Christie) not pushing her own whip.

Girls.

❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤

This morning I got up early, buried my hair and then went to see Rock.

I keep changing his name.

The only other person close to me that I’ve done that with was my mother.

I started out calling her Mama, then Ma then Mamacita.

I don’t like her.

I wonder if that says anything about my relationship with Rock.

We still get along well but I had to use a little “magic” to stay with him because his family is trying to tear us apart.

I love them but they don’t like me because I hate devils.

Everytime I see him he has on a Treme’ something.

I LOVE IT!

The shirts call it “The Jazz Corner of the World”

I DON’T LIKE IT!

It should read, “THE BIRTHPLACE OF JAZZ”

I think they may be scared.

That statement holds a lot of weight.

BUT

It’s the TRUTH.

ALL

YOU

HAVE

TO

DO

IS

GO

THERE

And you’ll see.

Jazz oozes up out of the cracks in the street.

It’s carried in the zephyrs.

It rides on the clouds above.

In lives in the hearts of the people.

Everything about The Treme’ spells J.A.Z.Z.

I know the guy who makes the T-shirts.

I’m sure I told him.

BUT

Sometimes it takes a while to admit you’re in error.

In Sha Allah, he’ll make new ones.

I will definitely buy a hoodie for my son.

He should put the fleur de lis somewhere on them too.

I saw Rock in his work clothes.

He tried to start an argument with me so he could leave.

I wouldn’t let him.

I’m too hip.

So, he offered his hand

AND

I took off my glove and let him grasp mine.

That was the first time we’ve ever done that.

The other day when I went to see him,

I was singing

Coloring

And he was quietly listening.

I like to sing around people

BUT

I try to sing like they’re not there

BUT

AT

THE

SAME

TIME

I’m gauging they’re responses

Taking

Note

To

When

They

Stop

Talking

But still singing when they are talking

Like I don’t care if they’re listening or not.

I’m just practicing anyway,

Right?

But he said

Kinda just loud enough for me to hear

“Sing it, Mama”

At the time I didn’t really feel anything

I just tried to sing better.

BUT

NOW

!!!

Everytime I think about it

My Heart Skips A Beat.

This was Sunday.

Men and women are not even supposed to be friends.

And I have a Zawji

It’s just that we’re not together.

AND

Sometimes

That’s my problem.

I need attention.

I even had a t-shirt with those words on it back in the nineties

When everybody was wearing those t-shirts from the seventies.

I didn’t realize how true it was

Until today.

That’s how I lost Zawji

In High School.

I hate that I’m like that.

I don’t want to be like Billie.

In Lady Sings The Blues.

She was supposed to be happy cooking and cleaning for Louis

But he thought his applause wasn’t good enough.

I think it was plenty.

I would love to sing for my Louis/Billy Dee/Zawji

While I’m baking him chocolate chip cookies or a bean pie or roasting vegetables or making bean soup or a milk and honey fruit shake or chocolate ice cream or marinating salmon for him to cue.

I wouldn’t have to sing another note

I WOULD BE AS HAPPY AS A QUEEN

IF

I could do that for the rest of my life.

He was the only thing that was missing when I WAS doing all that

SO

My L.A. landlord called me yesterday.

It was nice to know he still thinks about me.

I know he had a place for me but I wouldn’t let him tell me.

I just interrupted him and informed him of my whereabouts.

I told him he would be the first one I call whenever I decide to hit the Shaw.

😉 😉 😉 😛 😛

And don’t wait until a holiday to call me!

Also tell Paul and Shaun I said As-Salaamu ‘Alaikum

I kinda have a New Orleans hook-up but she’s too into Yoruba and Catholicism

And is low-key trying to make me into her ho.

SO

Cheah

That’s a no-go.

I am trying to get some low-income housing but it takes so long.

I rescheduled my dentist appointment so I’m going to be here at least another month.

In Sha Allah

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Until then…

4:42 p.m.