Moses Fleetwood Walker

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

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As-Salaamu ‘Alaikum Beloved Brothers & Sisters

If I may, I would like to introduce you to a personage from American Black History with whom you may or may not be familiar.

Most people erroneously credit Jackie Robinson with being the first Black person to break the color barrier in major league baseball. Few people know of Moses Fleetwood Walker who, according to MLB.com, was the “first African-American to play in Major Leagues.”

However, even fewer people know of Walker’s dedication to the struggle for equal rights among Black people.

Walker penned a treatise in 1908, wherein he stated, “The only solution to America’s race problem is the entire separation by emigration of the Negro from America.”

You know this sounds like it came from the mouth of Our Beloved Messenger, The Honourable Elijah Muhammad (May the Peace and the Blessings of Allah Forever Be Upon Him).

So, I found the treatise. You can read it in its entirety and for free by clicking the following link.

“Our Home Colony: A Treatise On The Past, Present And Future Of The Negro From America”

New Breed

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

As-Salaamu ‘Alaikum Ma Beautiful, Beloved and Asiatic Black Bebies

The Sister Captain is feeling really down right now.

I had a good weekend filled with good music, dancing, a lot of sun and relaxation but something very important, to me, at least, became very apparent this weekend.

All my life I’ve wanted people my age to dance together like my parents and their contemporaries danced together. When I was growing up, we danced together but not together. We stood in front of each other and each did our own separate moves. Unless we were slow-dancing but that’s not really dancing, it’s more like moving side to side while you’re hugging.

I wanted to dance with my partner leading me and twirling me around and pulling me close then spinning me back out again like the older folks used to dance.

Well, sometime between this weekend and the last time I went to a dance club, that is exactly what happened.

The popular way of dancing, it seems now, is for couples to dance together, like I’ve always dreamed.

I owe it to a combination of the movie “La La Land,” or whatever it was called and “Dancing With The Stars.”

I first noticed it when I went to the Central Avenue Jazz Festival, but that is usually frequented by older people anyway, so naturally they still dance like that. Admittedly, I did see a younger woman dancing like that but I just attributed it to being at the festival.

But Friday night, when I went to see The Boogaloo Assassins, ALL of the couples were dancing like that, and I was so depressed I could hardly stand it.

It just pointed out that my dream has come true but I don’t have a partner anymore.

And Zawji is such a good dancer, it just made my misery worse. The irony.

I wouldn’t think about letting another man hold and touch me in such an intimate fashion. Besides, Muslims are instructed not to dance with non-Muslims.

Then to make matters worse, (I thought maybe it was just the type of music [Latin] that prompted people to dance together like that), when I went to the Promenade last night, I was greeted with a dance party of about fifty or more couples dancing in that style. This is definitely a “new breed” of dancers.

All I could do was gawk and feel sorry for myself.

But I learned to just cry on the inside.

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So, I had a good time dancing at the Boogaloo show, but Saturday!

They kept saying their name, “The New Breed Brass Band,” and if you didn’t know, you would by the time they finished. And before the show, I kept forgetting the name of the band but I will never forget it again.

They put on such a good show!!! I danced from start to finish. I had to remember how to Second Line, but once I got it, it was on and poppin’!

I like how they played New Orleans Jazz but they infused it with Straight-Ahead AND Latin Jazz.

But the best part, by far, was when they started playing “Gin & Juice.” 😉

Sometimes it’s hard to recognize a familiar song when it’s played by a Brass Band, but for some reason, maybe because I’m such a G 😛 , I knew it as soon as they went into it. Then I had to show my you-know-what. LOL I started doing the C-walk, and throwing up the dub, shouting out “West Siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiide!!!!!!!!” ROFL

I was really showing out for my SET! And I was standing all by myself, in the middle of the crowd, with space around me to really get into it. I know the band loved my early enthusiasm! LOL

Then they started singing the hook and everybody knew what song it was.

I love dancing like gangsters. It reminds me of my firstborn because that’s how she used to dance when she was like four. Throwin’ her hands up in the air with her head down and doing a two-step. LOL I had a ball.

Then they started playing “California Love” and you know we know how to party.

I love when bands tailor their set to suit us. Like when Eric B & Rakim went on Soul Train. I would have preferred “Eric B is President” or “Paid in Full” but they chose “I Know You Got Soul,” undoubtedly because of its reference to Soul Train.

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But trip this! Saturday morning, I woke up happy and refreshed, basking in the aftermath of the show I had seen the previous night and set out for the Pier.

On the way, I passed what looked like the aftermath of someone who had stolen somebody’s bag, gone through it, and left the remains.

Naturally, being homeless and broke, I was intrigued.

I kept riding, looking around. I saw a crazy white man across the street, but didn’t think it was his, he was so far away.

So, I rode back and stopped in front of the booty.

I was checking it out, but two fellow members of the Homeless Society spotted me and thought they could get in on it too.

When they approached, one of them said, under his breath, “You f__k with that s__t?”

I was like “No.”

But I guess, like most salespeople, he refused to take no for an answer and repeated his question.

“NO!” I said emphatically.

Then his attention turned to the loot. Being members of the male sex, they quickly overpowered me and I was reduced to onlooker status.

Turns out the crazy white man across the street was the owner.

Then the bartering began.

“Ay, let me get those headphones.”

“Oh. I need my headphones.”

“Let me get that portable battery charger.” He takes it. “What’s this?”

“Oh, that’s my toothbrush and stuff.”

“Can I have your phone?” I ask.

“I need my phone.”

“Let me get those Nike pants.” (The crazy white man was wearing a matching Nike set.)

Then the drug dealer inquired if the crazy white man f____d with that s___t. He did.

“Okay, let me get those Nike pants.”

The crazy white man refused the pants, but they agreed on the shirt.

So, the drug dealer takes the phone I wanted and moved it right in front of where he had sat down.

So, I’m thinking maybe he’s going to steal it for me. Then he says to me, “You wanna be my girlfriend?”

And I’m flattered because he was cute and there’s something about drug dealers… I think it’s because they’re business owners and I’m really attracted to Brothers who do for self. :/ But he was all of 22. SMH

I reply bashfully, “I got a boyfriend.”

Then he says something along the lines of “Where is he?”

And I’m left fumbling for an excuse. Meanwhile, he takes out a piece of a plastic black bag that he has stored his drugs in and starts biting it open. He takes out what we, who are used to following recipes, would call “a pinch” of cocaine and puts it on the phone.

So now, I’m like, “THAT’S what you wanted the phone for?!?!?” :/

But he was unaware of my plot and goes on after the exchange is made, “You gonna hang out with me or what?”

And I’m like, “Nah, I’ma violate my probation…” :/

Then he was like, “I’m on PAROLE!”

And I was like, “Boy, bye.”

And pushed to the pier.

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So, when I was at the Boogaloo show, as I was leaving, I went past the food section and there was a catering truck called “Postcards.”

I’m really interested in food, so I stopped to have a look.

Every single entree was named after a famous Black person, most of them artists from the Harlem Renaissance! You know I loved that. Of course, the truck was Black-owned and I greeted the young man and woman, who appeared to be his mother, who were operating it, and kept on heading towards the exit.

The band was performing an encore and so I stopped for a minute to catch a little bit more of the show, and then comes the mother, with two tacos and hands them to me.

I was so moved by her generosity! I mean, she saw a poor homeless, probably hungry, Black girl and came and offered some of her vittles! That was so thoughtful. Allah rewards that type of behaviour and I implore each one of you to patronize her business if you ever happen to come across them. Okay, I just Googled them and found their webpage and although, they claim to serve “Soul Food with a healthy twist.” I really don’t think that’s possible and judging from the pictures I’ve seen, they think greens and macaroni and cheese are healthy. Anyway, here is the link to their website: POSTCARDSCAS

Oh, okay, I just checked out the menu and the “healthy twist” is that all of the meats are baked and the side orders have no meat products. I guess this is an improvement in the way most Black people eat, but we should be here.

You can find them every Tuesday at the Santa Monica Food Truck night at the California Heritage Museum from 5:30-9:30.

So anyway, unfortunately, the poor, homeless and probably hungry Black girl is also vegetarian but didn’t want to hurt her generous benefactors feelings, so she graciously accepted the offering and passed it on to what appeared to be a more poor, homeless and probably hungrier Black girl she passed sitting on a park bench on her way out.

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I thought about just spending the night at Macarthur Park. A lot of people do that. But then I thought about Santa Monica…

On Sunday, I witnessed an altercation there between two men, one of whom was holding knife. Another man was trying to break it up and eventually the man without the knife was able to get away from the other man.

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While I was at the park, I went exploring in the rec center and found a flier. They have Hip-Hop classes in breaking, graffiti (urban art), deejaying, emceeing/spoken word and music production on Saturdays from 12-4. JUICE I am pretty sure the classes are still going on because last year, they had the final show in December.

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Why was I at the show on Friday feeling a little bad about my attitude towards that would-be photographer, and about to write an explanation about how as Muslims, Our Beloved Messenger, The Honourable and Humble Elijah Muhammad (May the Peace and the Blessings of Allah Forever Be Upon Him) taught us not to allow Christians and unbelievers to photograph us, so that’s why I get so upset. But when I turned around to get my notebook out of Lulu’s basket, why was there a devil taking her picture??? See what I’m saying??? :/

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I was so worried about what I was going to eat this weekend because I had $1.79 in cash benefits and $.75 in food benefits but I ended up getting so much food I made myself sick! LOL Allahu Akbar!

I pray Allah you all had a wonderful weekend and will have a wonderful week, month, year and lifetime. Peace and Blessings of Allah be upon you.

As-Salaamu ‘Alaikum!

 

 

 

THE SOUL QUEEN

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

As-Salaamu ‘Alaikum Ma Beloved and Beautiful Asiatic Black Bebies!!!

I pray Allah you had as “wonderful and marvelous” a Thursday night as I had! Al Hamdulillah! First, as if the anticipation of seeing The Soul Queen of New Orleans in concert wasn’t enough, we were greeted at the entrance with ROSES! You know how much I love ROSES! I got a red one, Beaux’s favorite for me. We got them last week too, but I just didn’t mention it…

Candy too! You know I have a sweet tooth! And I felt absolutely NO GUILT whatsoever.

Our Beloved Messenger, The Honourable Elijah Muhammad (May the Peace and the Blessings of Allah Forever Be Upon Him) Taught us in HOW TO EAT TO LIVE that we can eat sweets, just don’t make a meal out of them and eat them everyday.

So, just f.y.i. my ideal diet consists of bean soup, whole wheat bread, milk (and other dairy products such as butter, cheese, yoghurt and ice cream), fresh fruits and vegetables and SWEETS! Hey, you are what you eat! 😀

So anyway, I like to get there early just because I like to get everywhere early and get a feel for the place before most people arrive and the festivities begin.

But let me tell you, yesterday before the show, I was discussing with a colleague, something I had realized about The Soul Queen. This article said she had won a Grammy or something in 2000 or so, when she was sixty years old.

So, I did the math and figured that she must be about 77 years old now. But looking at the pictures I’ve seen, she looked really good to be that old.

But I just saw Congresswoman Maxine Waters (and just like you have to include the “A pimp named…” you have to include the “Congresswoman”… 😉 ) at the Central Avenue Jazz Festival, and you would be surprised at how many years a carefully selected wig will take off a septuagenarian’s age.

But, as I always tell my son, who would prefer to play sports than music, musicians often are able to perform until the day that no man can avert, so it is not really surprising that she looks so good.

But anyway, the show.

I knew it was going to be good when somehow, I ended up right near the backstage and saw her bandmembers. They reeked funk. I mean I could almost see it in the air around them.

So when Aaron Byrd (SMH :/ ) from KCRW (the first radio station I was ever on 🙂 ) introduced the band, and her drummer opened his mouth and greeted us with that amazing New Orleans accent, I was in Seventh Heaven.

They opened with “Uptown Funk” and I mean, you would have to be on crutches not to dance to “Uptown Funk!” So after the crowd was sufficiently hyped, and they began the intro into another equally funky song, the drummer introduced Mrs. Irmaaaaaaaaaa Thomas!

We heard her incredible voice before we saw her and believe me when I tell you, her title of The Soul Queen is not undeserved. I would even go so far to say that she is even more soulful than the Queen of Soul.

I’ve heard people try to describe soul, but it is like trying to describe jazz. How do you describe a feeling? Some people can deliver it and others, no matter how many hours of practice and study they apply to trying to acquire it, never will. (But their paid instructors will never tell them that… :/ )

The Soul Queen gave me that feeling as soon as she opened her mouth. She has that kind of voice that is reserved for Black women who command respect.

Admittedly, I was a little skeptical because I’ve been disappointed before when artists have been hyped up to be more than they were. (Like the headlining act. Oh my God. She was terrible. And I don’t mean good & terrible. She was just terrible. And I don’t mean terrible like Miles used in his autobiography. Terrible, as in when I overheard her screeching, after I had already left upon witnessing her all-white band, I couldn’t unlock Lulu fast enough to RUN AWAY FROM HER “PERFORMANCE.” I would compare her to “Alfalfa,” but that would be an insult to “Alfalfa.”

I am cringing just thinking about how badly she sounded.

The only reason why people even give her a chance is because of her image, which I also deplore. She was on the cover of “The Argonaut” when I did finally pick one up and she does have an intriguing look, but she has a head full of too-long dreadlocks and that in itself is repulsive. All I see are germ-catchers in such proximity to her face and it creeps me out immensely.

But she is pretty, probably has a nice figure, and for some people that’s enough.

But I find it offensive that they would impose such a person on actual music lovers. I’m thankful that she performed after Mrs. Thomas.

But the show. She opened with a number that I could really dig. Something, like “Since you say you love me, I’m gonna hold you to that.” But more poetic. It was an uptempo number and I was really getting my groove on.

Then she sang a problematic love song. So I took my leave and used that as an excuse to go get some “boxed water.” Which is not better. It tastes likes metal pipes.

But then she did a recent number which was cool. I mean I dug it, but the bridge needed work. It was repetitive and didn’t have the buildup that I was looking for. It was fine and mellow though and more good than not so good.

Then she did some real bluesy numbers and if there’s anything I love, it’s LIVE BLUES. THAT experience makes me feel that way. I was lovin’ it!

But you know the Blues can be some of the filthiest music ever written and Mrs. Thomas is not Muslim, so she sang a filthy one.

I knew it was filthy just from the feel. So, I stopped dancing and started listening and was embarrassed. I just stood there and waited for her to finish.

And then, as if singing such filth wasn’t insult enough to the Almighty Lord of the Universe, they followed it with a number that sounded like they just changed the words to a church song. I also didn’t dance to that one.

But then they came back to my favor and did a audience request which she basically sang a capella, and it was absolutely beautiful.

She did a couple more songs from her catalogue. I loved them. I wished she would have allowed her trumpet player longer or “trumpet-only” solos. But some artists feel an obligation to let ALL of their bandmembers solo. Why? Unless you’re just trying to be fair. But they should understand the trumpet is the best and defer their solos to him for the sake of the audience and good taste.

It would have been nice and very New Orleans, if she had had a trombone. That would have just taken it over the top for me.

Oh yeah! Her Band! Why did they do this ending to this song that was Out-of-this-world!!! I mean, I was jumping up and down like “YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!” It was a typical repetitive ending but it was LONGER than they usually are and I so really dug it. I mean, I don’t want to curse (LOL) but DANG!!!!!!!!

She ended her set with a revisitation of a New Orleans Second Line, explaining that “Second Line” was a “dance.” I disagreed, but I guess.

She sang “Iko”

And that is my favorite New Orleans song, tied with Jambalaya.

And I “second lined” as well as I could in these size 13, men’s jail shoes I found one day. 😉 Hey, they’re better than the flip-flops I found that I had been wearing that the part between the toes kept coming undone.

I know, I know. I had some $150 Nikes but I got in the water and then almost got arrested again and the Pos made me take them off when they searched me and I couldn’t put them back on when they let me go because they were wet, and I was kind of having an episode and decided to just leave them.

I don’t know why sometimes I feel more comfortable going barefoot. When I was pregnant with my firstborn, I almost went everywhere barefoot. There is some truth to that saying. But, one of Beaux’s doppels gently explained to me the importance of shoes, especially living in the city, so I try to comply.

But after the show, I was sitting on my park bench giving running commentary on the passers-by (e.g. a woman and her beau are out for a nighttime run; She has on some booty biking shorts and a sports bra; flips her pony-tail braid when she gets in front of me; excuse me for not being jealous but; aloud, “You look like a ho!“; beau gives me the evil-eye; “And you look like a whoremonger!”) when I hear this homeless Brother addressing some devil teenage girls sitting near me but out of sight.

“Something something something BASKETBALL GAME… something something something…”

That’s all I could make out, but he gives them something that looks like an over-sized flier.

So, you know I love basketball and although I felt guilty because sport and play, you know, I said loudly, “Can I have one?”

So, I see him through the bushes bending over looking in his bag like he’s getting one for me, so I get up and go over to him to make it easier.

He reluctantly hands me a flier but I notice it’s different than the one he gave the devils.

Then he goes over to his bag again and gets out somethings that look like tickets and gives one to each of the devils, bypassing me.

I kind of block him and force him to give me one too. I can’t help being aggressive. Okay, pushy. But why wouldn’t he want to give one to his Black Sister? Maybe because I overheard him tell the devils he was trying to get his event televised and they, he figured, probably had more access to a television studio than his Black Sister who has nothing like he has.

So, I take my flier and go back and sit on my bench to give it a once-over.

I am trying to find the words to describe what I was faced with.

It was complete and utter nonsense.

The first thing I saw was a photocopy of the cover of “Hoop” magazine with the All-Star weekend photo. It was folded like a book but the cover was on the back. So I turned it over and there was some images of what was supposed to be a c.d. with his name, phone number, a copyright 2002, and “Gospel” “Hip-Hop” “Freestyle” and 17 MIN written on them. Then there was copy of a receipt from the Nike store for some $140.00 Air Zoom shoes, paid for with a Chase Visa card. There were photocopies of three of his expired Driver’s Licenses on almost every page.

But trip this. In the I.D. picture from 2005 and 2010, he had on the same shirt!

I haven’t even done that and I wear a uniform every day!

All over these papers (it was like a pamphlet with two papers inserted) there were “phone numbers” of various people whom I assume were all basketball players because Lisa Leslie was one of them.

So, the two papers inserted were like invitations to events held 4/1/17 and 6/19/17 (my birthday :/ ) Here is a description of the directions:

In front of Victoria’s Secret 1311 3rd St. Promenade, Santa Monica, CA 90401: 7 second walk to A.M.C. Santa Monica 1310 3rd St. Promenade Santa Monica, CA 90401: Across street from OAKLEY 1350 3rd St. Promenade, Santa Monica, CA 90401: 60 second walk to ADIDAS 1231 3rd St. Promenade Santa Monica, CA 90401: 50 second walk to PATAGONIA 1344 4th St. Santa Monica, CA 90401:

So now I’m looking at his I.D. trying to figure out how old he is. His birthday is 2-20-69. Which makes him 48. Around my age and almost exactly Beaux’s age.

So now, I’m really feeling sorry for him and wondering how I can help. I’m deeply engrossed, now examining the “ticket” I received from him and I vaguely become aware of some passers-by. There have been others but they were all a blur until these two. They’re semi-arguing…

“Go ask her!”

“Okay, I am!…. Excuse me, Ma’am…”

I try to ignore her.

A little louder now, “Excuse me… [pause] Ma’am?”

I don’t look up but raise my hand and wave it a little, as if to say, “Go away.”

She persists, “May I take your picture?”

I put my open hand over my forehead covering my eye.

Then her beau says, “Come on, Honey. She doesn’t want to be bothered.”

As he pulls her away, she blurts out, “You look AMAZING!!!“

Huh? I am completely baffled.

Look Lady, in case you haven’t noticed, I’M HOMELESS. What, exactly, about homelessness looks “amazing?”

In retrospect, maybe I should have let her take the photo. Then I could have had her e-mail it to me and maybe I could have seen what she obviously saw.

But I doubt I would have seen more than a middle-aged homeless woman, decked out in donated clothes and too-big shoes with a conspicuous bike (you know Lulu would have been in the picture too) laden with all her worldly possessions.

But anyway, other than having to change locations multiple times due to the increased activity because of TCS (Twilight Concert Series), I had a wonderful night. Woke up happy and refreshed to the sight of seagulls, sunrise and surf and am thankful to Allah for all of the bright possibilities of a new day! Allahu Akbar!

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On a side note, I think I discovered why the sound of basketballs bouncing hold such appeal for people like me and Miles and Black people in general – it is rhythmic.

Last night I heard what sounded like someone bouncing a basketball and it was so annoying because it sounded like they were bouncing it and catching it, waiting a couple of seconds and then bouncing it again. I wanted to scream! It was tantamount to scratching a chalkboard.

BASKETBALLS WERE MADE TO BE DRIBBLED!!!!

There is an inherent rhythm, similar to drumming in the dribbling of a basketball, and I believe therein lies the charm.

Not to mention the auxiliary sounds like the swoosh of the hoop and the squeak of the sneakers. And the dead air of the flow to the basket… All melodious and music to my ears….

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But anyway, I’m going to try and catch the laundry clerk……

Salaams

Okay, okay, I guess I can use regular soap to wash my clothes…. 😉

I went down to the beach last night after Irma’s set and happened upon the most intriguing music. It was so peculiar because I’ve seen his abandoned set up numerous times, but I always thought it was just a D.J. who had just finished playing music. I’d never seen the actual D.J.

So, last night, I see the person to whom the set up belonged and the music is what captured me. It was so funky and danceable. I couldn’t help but move.

So, I’m dancing and I notice some beach toys (bucket, shovel and other toys) on the ground. I love playing in the sand. So, I asked the men standing right behind them if they were theirs. Of course, they said “No.” So, I picked them up with every intention of taking them down to the beach and having a field day.

That happens all the time. Visitors bring their children to the beach for a day or a week and at the end of their vacay, they have no more use for the toys, so they just leave them at the beach. I have played with beach toys and left them there too for lack of a place to keep them.

But anyway, shortly after I pick them up, I see the most adorable little girls. One was maybe six and the other probably four. So, I offer the toys to the older one. She politely refused. So, I gave them to her little sister. The Big Sister insisted that the toys weren’t theirs and I said, “No, no, I’m giving them to you.”

By now the parents have walked up and the father looks at me and says, “Are you Muslim?” And I’m like “Yes, where are you from?”

He says “Yemen.”

And I tell them I know where Saudi is and I know where Oman is. Where is Yemen in relation to those two countries?

He says they are just South of Yemen and his beautiful Zawjati added that Oman is on the East of the Arabian peninsula. Women are so cute. 😉

So, by the time I finished talking to the beautiful family, the musician had finished his number and was talking to his Muse.

So, I started to go on down to the beach. But he started another number almost as good as the first. And I had seen he had blonde dreadlocks twisted up on top of his head, but I was like, “It’s dark and maybe he’s not white.”

So, I go over to his setup and he has c.d.s for sale. I look at the c.d.s and he looked like his picture should have been in the dictionary under D for Devil. And he had three of them. I very calmly and seriously backed away from the table.

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I found some flowers that I love, even though I’m not crazy about the name. I picked some and filled Lu’s cup holder with them. It’s so cool because they and Lu are the same fantastic shade of fuschia. Be sure to SMELL this flower, at the very least, if you ever come across them.

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Downtime

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

As-Salaamu ‘Alaikum My Beloved and Beautiful Asiatic Black Bebies!

The Club was closed yesterday and I came up here for nothing. :/ As there was only a small notification on the calendar and no other warning that they were going to be closed. Sometimes people can be so inconsiderate. Thoughtless.

But anyway, after I was turned away, I was left with the monumental task of trying to find something to do with the rest of my day.

Naturally, I decided to head back to the beach.

I had spent the morning there as usual and it was just as lovely as ever, but the crowds tend to annoy me, so I rather enjoy leaving before they arrive.

Nevertheless, Lulu took me in that direction.

I like to take different routes to the same destination. It makes the journey more fun and interesting and this day, although I have taken Wilshire Blvd. HUNDREDS of time to the beach, it has always been by bus.

When you take automobile or train, you miss out on A LOT of stuff.

So, as I was riding, I passed a store I’ve seen many times but always at a distance.

Yesterday, I happened to be, not even in the street, but on the sidewalk, and got a good look at the items for sale in this particular store.

It was an Iranian store stocked with items from that part of the world and I was in Seventh Heaven!

I have never seen a store like this in L.A. and I was thrilled.

I entered with nothing but SOAN PAPDI in mind. However, when I stepped through the door, my mind immediately opened to a whole new world of food possibilities.

I was greeted with rows and rows of nothing but HONEY! And you know how much I love honey. Then the whole back wall of the store was nothing but an array of different flavors and manufacturers of TEA! I love tea and now I’m thinking it has something to do with being Muslim.

They even had cans of BABA GHANOUSH! Which I had never seen before. Later on, I went to another store (I ended up just going into stores and “shopping” like Beaux is actually a billionaire, all day 😉 ) and they also had it but it was refrigerated and in glass jars. In sha Allah, I’m going to buy from there.

Usually, Mediterranean restaurants offer Baba, but they push Hummus because it’s more widely known. I’ve never liked hummus. Baba, being made from eggplant is better for you.

I have a sixth sense about foods that are good or not good for you. And chickpeas is high on my list of NOT good for you. So, I would recommend steering away from hummus.

On a side note, I found a restaurant on the Third Street Promenade that serves Babaganoush. It is a Mediterranean restaurant. There are two and I cannot think of the names of either one. Let me G it BRB

Okay, the one that DOESN’T sell Baba is Hummus Bar Express. The one that DOES is Greek Cuisine Stop n Cafe. I hate how the Greeks have taken credit for Muslim foods. Just because they’re white and their proximity to North Africa and devils run the world…

A couple other foods that are being pushed, which I don’t recommend are BOBA and POKE.

I could be wrong but Our Beloved Messenger (May the Peace and the Blessings of Allah forever be upon him) Taught us in HOW TO EAT TO LIVE that “Simple Foods Are Best” and not to be trying all of the devils’ new and fancy foods lest you be trying on a new coffin.

But this market, (and I must mention that the customers did not like my being there in the least – possessive about “their” culture, you know. :/ The proprietors, on the other hand, were curious, probably, as to my interest, but I’m used to being stared at :/ ), but anyway, this market had so many wonderful sauces and spreads!

And food, to me, is all about FLAVOR. So, In Sha Allah, when my food stamps come in (they take food stamps! 😀 ), I’m going to buy some whole-wheat bread and start sampling!

One thing I don’t eat of theirs is the flatbread, sometimes called Naan or pita or whatnot. Our Beloved Messenger, The Honourable Elijah Muhammad (May the Peace and the Blessings of Allah Forever Be Upon Him) Taught Us In HOW TO EAT TO LIVE that “Whole Wheat Bread is the Best.”

Then I looked behind the counter and there was a refrigerated section underneath, with nothing but cheeses, olives, and foreign dishes, many of which were vegetarian. I did not see one item in the store that contained the filthy, poisonous, and divinely prohibited flesh of the swine. Allahu Akbar!!!

Also in the refrigerated section, under the counter, was the meat section. Seventy-five per cent of the meat was LAMB. Which our Beloved Messenger, The Honourable and Humble Elijah Muhammad (May the Peace and the Blessings of Allah Forever Be Upon Him) Taught us in HOW TO EAT TO LIVE is better than chicken or beef. Although, “No meat is good for you.“

When I went to the Santa Monica Farmer’s Market on the Third Street Promenade, I bought some goat cheese that was SO GOOD. But I might not be able to wait until Wednesday or Saturday when they have the FM, so I will probably just go to this store when I have those cravings and the means to satisfy them.

Okay, okay, okay! I’ll tell you the name of the store. It is Tehran Market. Happy? :/

You know, I used to tell any and everything with no qualms, but sometimes it backfires in that I can no longer benefit because of the added popularity. But Allah Told me don’t be like that. He Always Blesses Me With Something New and Improved. 😉 Allahu Akbar.

So, I contemplated going down to the beach and getting in the water. It was an exceptionally nice day for the beach yesterday and the waves were very inviting. But Lu. It’s harder for me to cross the bridges that carry you over to the beach with her because they all have stairs and I didn’t feel like walking down to the pier.

So, I just sat in John’s spot on the grass and played with the squirrels, drank my “water chai” LOL from The Coffee Bean and took a catnap.

They were filming yesterday and since The Club was closed, I didn’t know where I was going to get my vittles. I haven’t fasted in so long, and wasn’t particularly interested in going on one impromptu, so I tried to come up on some Craft Services, especially when I noticed that the person in charge was a Brother.

He was kind of defensive though, because I opened with, “All you have are peanut butter and jelly sandwiches for the vegetarians? You should make some sandwiches with avocado, lettuce and cheese.” You know how I am. :/ I can’t help it though. I promise my intentions are pure!

So, he goes, “Is that what I should do?”

And I was kind of taken aback, but just smiled and took that as my cue that I wasn’t going to get any free vittles. And rode off.

He said, “As-Salaam-Alaikum!”

And I happily replied, “Wa Laikum Salaam!”

So, I had a banana, some plums and a couple apples. I thought about buying a loaf of bread because for some reason, I was craving bread. But I just ate my fruit and decided to keep my food stamps for the weekend and wait until today to get some real food at the Club.

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So, I visited a couple libraries and, you know, hanging around con-artists and thieves in New Orleans rubbed off on me, to my detriment.

I mean, TWO people, on two separate occasions, left computers right in front of me and LEFT! Out of SIGHT!

I couldn’t sit still, concentrate or get my mind off of those computers the whole time they were gone.

And you know I need a computer.

But I didn’t.

It just makes me realize that I’ve changed unwillingly.

They say “Birds of a feather flock together.” And that’s who I was with.

So unfortunately, some of it rubbed off of me.

But I found this amazing book!

It’s called “Miss Manners’ GUIDE TO A SURPRISINGLY DIGNIFIED WEDDING“

And I love it.

She is teaching the Sister Captain how to be a better Captain.

She has been married fifty years. And has the most sarcastic sense of humor. I was in the library cracking up!

She talked about the practice of pinning money on the bride which I agree is one of the most vulgar practices human beings could have resorted to. I don’t like it on birthdays either.

I will put it the way Miss Manner’s so delicately put it.

First, you would have to be very familiar with a person to get so close to them as to pin something on their raiment. But Miss Manner’s says that actually this is a very common practice.

At STRIP CLUBS!

LOL Just to give you an example of her humor and sarcasm.

It’s so funny because there are so few people who can relate to people like us, but if you think you can hang, I highly recommend the book. I’m not going to keep it to myself. 😉

I saw another book yesterday in my “shopping.” It was a book of album covers of just Black groups and it was about four inches thick! I wish I had written down the title. In Sha Allah, I will go back and get the title. Let me G it, BRB.

Can’t find it. But I go by the store all the time. The problem is going during business hours. Yesterday was an unusual day, but In Sha Allah…

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So tonight is the Twilight Concert Series and guess who is performing???

IRMA THOMAS – THE  SOUL QUEEN OF NEW ORLEANS

It is so ironic that I would be able to see her out here for FREE because when I was in New Orleans, I would have had to donate blood or something to be able to afford to see her perform. She’s as bad as Papa out there! But anyway, I’m just grateful…

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Okay, so let me write some stuff I’ve had on a list for a while.

  • There is this Black-owned Contracting Company – DreamABuild. I looked at their photos and they were all high-class and you know I have high standards. Let me just tell you this; ALL of the showers had glass doors.
  • I’m looking for sponsors… Blue Note At Sea.
  • I took a mini tour of the Santa Monica Pier, we only toured the Carousel and Oh My God! Why are there apartments on the top floor!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They were AMAZING!!! Can you imagine LIVING ON THE SANTA MONICA PIER!!!!!!!!!!!! First, the view was spectacular, but second, the very apartments are so airy and sunny and comfortable and just beyond words. I would give my appendix to live in one of those apartments. But they’re just used for offices now. :/

Speaking of the Carousel, rides are only $1 for children. So don’t pass it up just because it LOOKS expensive…. Let the chirren ride. 😉

  • I finally went to FOOTACTION. I know I don’t have enough money for any of those shoes anymore. But remember, Beaux’s a Billionaire, so I went in and was surprised that I actually found something remarkable about the store.

I bought my son some Adidas boots (think Timberland) when he was first born, from there, because it was nearby – in the Baldwin Hills Crenshaw Plaza. But lately, I’ve been kinda bougie towards them, favoring Foot Locker just because…

So when I went in, I just did so to critique them. However, I was pleasantly surprised at the uniqueness of the variety of shoes. Although Champs shoes were more aesthetically pleasing, FootAction’s were more suited to your individuality. In short, if you want a pair of shoes that no one else has… FootAction.

  • The other night I went to a symposium on hunger and there was a group there that collects surplus fruit from residential homes that have excess fruit on their fruit trees. If you live in Southern California and want to donate, visit Food Forward. They have trained and insured pickers that will come and pick the fruit.
  • For the youth, there is an organization in Santa Monica where you can go. They have audio and video studio equipment if you’re into music or film, open mics, computers, Art and other fun stuff. Pico Youth & Family Center.
  • I had planned to go see this Brass Band on Saturday but when I went to the website I found out that this other group that sounds really funky is playing tomorrow. Both FREE shows! New Breed Brass Band on Saturday

and The Boogaloo Assassins on Friday; Levitt Pavillion at Macarthur Park. 7:30

  • I found out the name of this aromatic plant that I thought was only up on the Point Dume – California Sagebrush. It smells so wonderful. But I found it on the bike trail too. So, if you bike, take the trail, it’s in Santa Monica around Centinela. Look for it and smell for it. 😉
  • Try easy-cooking.blogsky.com for some healthy recipes. Just click “translate.”
  • I saw another book that I would buy in a perfect world VINEGAR SOCKS…
  • And this just has been in my head for a minute

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Allahu Akbar!

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

AS-SALAAMU ‘ALAIKUM MA BEAUTIFUL & BELOVED ASIATIC BLACK BEBIES!!! 

MUAH!!! ❤ ❤ ❤

Allah is the Greatest! That is what Allahu Akbar means in English!!! And Master Fard Muhammad, To Whom Praises Are Due Forever, Our Saviour And Deliverer, Who Came To Put Us On Top of Civilization and Redeem Us and Destroy Those Who Have Destroyed Us is DEFINITELY THE GREATEST GOD WHO HAS EVER LIVED AND WE FOREVER GIVE THANKS AND PRAISES TO HIM AND HIM ALONE FOR HIS LOVE, KINDNESS, MERCY, FORGIVENESS AND BLESSINGS. ALL PRAISE IS DUE TO ALLAH! HE IS THE GREATEST!!!

Okay, Beloved Brothers and Sisters, you know I “LOVE ALLAH,” right??? 🙂 Well, I just suffered the second most disappointing event of my life but Allahu Akbar!

Everything happens for a reason.

As the Sister Captain, I am learning that I have to suffer where others below me do not and Allah is the Best Knower and the Best Planner and it is written in Our Beloved Holy Qur’an Sharrieff that Allah Does Not Place A Burden On Us That We Have Not The Strength To Bear.

So, I first learned with my holistic remedies, that I have to suffer where those below me do not. My remedy worked on everybody else, but when I became afflicted with the same dis-ease, the remedy did not work. So, I just deduced that Our Saviour Wanted Me To Suffer.

The Bible speaks and Our Beloved Messenger, The Honourable Elijah Muhammad (May the Peace and the Blessings of Allah Forever Be Upon Him) Taught Us Himself, that he would have to suffer all the afflictions that WE have to suffer or else Allah Would Not Have Chosen Him to be the Good Messenger (Peace Be Upon Him).

So, I guess, in a similar fashion, I’m going through it too.

This morning, I went to court FINALLY, to change my name.

Now, I was a little worried because the Sheriffs stole my paperwork and I was afraid the judge would want me to present it. But I went and took care of everything. So before I went to court, I felt pretty confident that the judge would rule in my favor, right? Wrong.

I got to court rather early because my original forms said 8:30 but when I went today, the clerk told me my court time was 10:00. But I wasn’t trippin’. I was going to go to Law School at one point and when I was a pre-teen, I wanted to be a judge. So I rather enjoy court and the discussion of Law and decided to pass the time just listening to the other cases before mine.

While I was waiting before the court opened, a Brother Lawyer happened to get up and look at some paperwork posted on the wall. Above the paperwork, it said something like “Today’s Cases.” So, as I was unsure if the clerk had given me the correct information, I also got up and looked on the wall to see if my case was actually scheduled for that courtroom and time.

To my utter horror, my case was listed but it was highlighted. That worried me. So, I looked and read the highlighted comments. It read that the judge had planned to deny my petition on the grounds that I had a warrant, a restraining order and I’m on probation.

I felt horrible.

But, I remembered I took care of the warrant when I went to jail and the restraining order ends in October and my probation is only summary probation meaning I don’t have to report to a probation officer or anything.

So, instead of just leaving and giving up all hope I decided to wait and see if I could persuade the judge to hear my testimony and maybe change his decision.

I even remembered my little masonic secret. And I knew if all else failed, that would work.

So, I listened to the cases ahead of mine and decided the judge was really trying to be fair. But then he got to the name change cases and he was a jerk and mean for no reason except maybe that the court was in L.A. and they tend to be meaner than the courts surrounding L.A.

For instance, the first time I changed my name in Long Beach, I hadn’t posted a notice in the paper yet, but the judge gave me a continuance.

So today, a Sister with the same issue appeared before this L.A. judge and he told her he didn’t usually issue continuances, but I was praying for the Sister, and he gave her a continuance.

Then the other Sister who was there, the judge had tentatively ordered a denial too, but she presented her evidence and he granted it. Then she asked for another favor. Tomorrow is her birthday and her license is going to expire, so she asked the judge if, instead of waiting the typical week for her paperwork, she could get something right then to take to the DMV. I was silently praying and sending positive “vibes” for her too and the judge granted her request.

Then my turn came.

So, I open with, “As one traveler to another…”

Then the judge interrupts me, “What do you mean? I’m not travelling! I’m sitting right here…”

And I was like, “Okay, you don’t wanna risk getting your head removed…” I think the judges know I’ve been telling everybody what to say when they go to court, or it could just be prejudice against the Sister Captain…

But I went on to explain that I don’t have a warrant anymore and whatnot, but Allah interrupted me and Told Me to Mention that he was travelling again, but I was scared and didn’t. Sometimes Allah Makes me do stuff that makes me appear so CRAZY! IMO anyway. And sometimes, I get scared of what people will think or what will happen and don’t do it. I know that was the reason he denied my request.

When Allah Tells You to do something, if you show greater fear for something or someone else, you suffer the consequences.

And man did I suffer!!! I have not felt that bad in thirty years, when I was denied acceptance to UCLA. That was the only school I ever wanted to go to and it was the only school I applied to. Now you know, when you apply to college, you’re supposed to apply to several. But I didn’t want to go anywhere else and I was in the UCLA Partnership Program at my High School, so it was like GUARANTEED I would get in.

But alas, I was the only person in Program that didn’t get accepted.

I was also the only Black person… So you know how that goes…

So, when I got the heartbreaking news, I retired to a seldom-used staircase and cried my little eyes out.

I was comforted in the way only a Blackman can comfort a Blackwoman and he dried my tears and stood in for Beaux who, although I didn’t know it at the time, was a good friend of his.

This morning, I felt equally as bad, but thirty years maturer, and although I was able to stave off the tears, I did find comfort once again, in the solitude of a seldom-used staircase.

There was no “Prince Charming” (for lack of a better term) this time, but I had my handy-dandy notebook. Writing always soothes my spirit. And by the time I alighted, I was in the mood I began this blog with (or close to it 😉 )

So now, I’m going to just do what Our Beloved Messenger (May the Peace and the Blessings of Allah Forever Be Upon Him) and so many other Muslims did and do, and just do like the slavemaster did and change my name without going through the court system.

I mean, I saw my image after I left the court room and I look just like a “terrorist.” I mean, I have on all black and a hijab. So why would an American grant me anything? :/

But, at least my GOVERNMENT name is a Holy Name of Allah.

I think Beaux wants me to have a secret name anyway… But don’t tell… 😉

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Yesterday, at the Club…

There are three women here who I consider my antagonists.

Well, at dinnertime, one was in front of me in line and instead of just taking the plate like everybody (except me) does, she says, “Can I just have salad and rice?” That’s what I say everyday. You know I’m a vegetarian and that’s all I can ever eat. But I was like, pissed because it felt like she was making mockery of me. I tried to content myself with the saying that imitation is the sincerest form of flattery. And deep down I think they want me to like them, but I’m like so far above them, it’s really difficult.

I’m trying to be forbearing. In Arabic, it is an attribute of Allah, Halim, but it is really difficult. I’ve been a leader all my life and it can be so frustrating.

Once when I was about ten or eleven, we went hiking and I was at the front of the pack, nearing the top of the hill and everybody started grabbing on to me, to help them up the hill. And I was only eleven or so and, I got so annoyed! In retrospect, and now that I’m an adult, I have to remember that I have a responsibility to help others who may not be as capable as I am.

My Grandfather used to call me, “Grandma Moses” for some reason, I’ll never know. But it makes me feel kin to Sister Harriet and she was the founder of The Underground Rail Road, so all I can picture her doing and I feel now like I’m supposed to do, is make sure everyone else gets to the top of the hill and then I can go on up.

So, when my turn comes, I say “Can I just have rice and salad?” trying to be a little bit individual, but then the other antagonist comes and repeats the same thing. So, I’m like really wondering what they’re up to.

I think they want to be like me, but don’t know how to. So, they pick up little things I do.

It has been my experience that these situations never turn out in my favor because when I befriend them and tell them everything I think will help them, they just end up thinking they can do it better than the teacher.

Granted, this only happened once and SHE WAS BLACK.

One of these three is Asian, another is white and the third may be mixed Black and something but I think she is a tranny, so I’m going to treat “her” like the other ones.

I am so thankful I wrote this because sometimes, I forget that I’m not supposed to love everybody. I was actually thinking about trying to make peace with a peace-breaking devil and a tranny! The Asian I don’t think wants to be like me.

See how good it is to find your therapy?!?!?! 🙂 It helps you think and sort things out.

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I have to write a retraction. Yesterday, I called Ben “Baba” and I forget that he loves devils.

I, intentionally, arrived to the Artwalk late, because I knew the devils would have left by then, but Brother Ramsess told me they were there earlier and I know it’s because of Ben.

He let me use his equipment and mentored me when I was younger, but then I became a Muslim. And, when you become a Muslim, it opens your eyes to things and situations you were blind to before.

So sometimes, I forget I’m not supposed to love everybody. Especially when I see the person…

But ALLAHU AKBAR! 🙂

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So, when I left, I had planned to just go to the Library, but my phone died and I really didn’t have any reason, so I just ended up riding Lu and enjoying the Santa Monica area.

I decided to ride South towards Marina del Rey, since I had picked up this newspaper that I had been seeing since I first started coming out here, but the L.A. Weekly has so soured me towards newspapers that I stopped reading them altogether. It is so filthy.

Nevertheless, I ended up picking up a Santa Monica Daily Press from this Black Barber shop I pass everyday on Broadway and like 17th (it’s called “Cuttin’ Up III, I think) and decided I might as well read The Argonaut too.

I was hesitant to read The Argonaut because I don’t know what an Argonaut is. But after reading the paper, I’m pretty sure it has something to do with seafaring because it only serves beach communities. Let me G it. BRB

Okay, it has something to do with Greek Mythology, (typical of devils) but it is based on a ship, so I was right. Now, I’m kind of hesitant to read it again because this is a spiritual war and any god other than Allah is definitely something I need to avoid.

So anyway, this newspaper, kind of made me expand my horizons into the other beaches near Samo and I wanted to see how far I could get.

I went to the Marina and I used to work out there in the late eighties, right after graduation and it felt kinda good to go back. We used to go there in my twenties too. There was TGI Fridays, Aunt Kizzie’s Back Porch, The Cheesecake Factory, the movie theatres and a shopping center. There was also this club called “Pizzazz” that I was never able to get into. Fake I.D., you know… 😉 And their Bouncers were not having it!

I had on the same shirt these girls had on in this video and some jeans with black leather across the front and just knew I was getting in. But he asked me my birthday…. :/ I felt like The Fat Boys trying to get in “The Fever” in Krush Groove. 😉 SMH

Okay, I can’t post the video with the shirts, because I just went to YT to look for it and those videos are so filthy…

There’s also a tennis center in the Marina that always reminded me of Beaux. But I’ve never been in it.

I went to this Ralph’s just because I used to go there and I really like Ralph’s and they had this ice cream me and Ibnana used to eat every day but they discontinued it. So, when I saw it again, even though my food stamps are almost gone, I had to have it. I hadn’t had it since 2008!

You know, I haven’t really lived off of my faith in Allah (swt) since I was in New Orleans and it feels really good.

I mean, I feel such a sense of accomplishment when I manage to score some food and it’s always GOOD food.

Like Sunday, I was going to spend my last f.s. but I came up on some really good French Fries, some soft dinner rolls and a bag of cherries! You know I love cherries. My parents named me Cheryce and that’s like cerise, which is cherry in French. It can also mean RED, which has always been my favorite color.

Then Saturday, I also didn’t have any food, but I was riding around Samo and came up on this neighborhood (Samo has some bomb houses) and there was a church that does food giveaways, but it’s difficult for me to go to food giveaways from Christians. So, I usually don’t. But I was there early and came up on a big package of cinnamon rolls on the other side of the church. ALLAHU AKBAR!!! So, I was good until Sunday night when I got the fries.

It’s just so interesting being able to live off of faith. It adds a whole new dimension to life.

The only thing I can liken it to is playing “fifteen-to-get-in” (Dominoes).  It’s a whole new game.

I was also surprised at the number of Black People there are in the Marina. It’s like the number in Samo and Venice combined. That felt good.

I came up on the Library too, so In Sha Allah, I’m definitely going back. There’s a Fisherman’s Wharf I was trying to get to too yesterday, with shops and whatnot, but I didn’t want to go that way.

I went the opposite way and found the bike trail, sat on a bench, ate my ice cream and paused for the Sunset.

Then I debated just sleeping right there. It was a wooden bench and those are much more comfortable than the metal ones. But I had court in the morning so I wanted to be near the train station so I wouldn’t be late.

So, I pushed back toward Samo.

I ended up going down Washington 🙂 and that leads to the Venice Pier.

How many of you knew there was a Venice Pier???

There’s a Malibu Pier too. FYI.

So, I rode down the Venice Pier and it was beautiful. The Sun had just set and the sky was lit orange and pink behind the Samo mountains.

You could see the ferris wheel on the Samo pier in the distance and it looked miles away. Everything on the coast looks faraway, but it’s not.

So, I reboarded the bike path and the waves were still mountainous like they had been in the morning and Lulu wanted to go to the water, so reluctantly, I took her.

I ended up getting all sentimental and missing Beaux.

I want to do couple stuff, you know?

And sometimes it really hits me.

I’m getting stronger though. Ordinarily, I would have cried, but I didn’t.

I didn’t cry this morning either. I didn’t want to give the judge the satisfaction of bringing the Sister Captain to tears. I’m stronger than I was the first time I felt such disappointment. ALLAHU AKBAR.

So, I just walked on the shore with Lu for awhile. She wanted to stay longer but I didn’t want to stay out too late and oversleep. So, I pushed back to the bike trail. It was just after crepuscule and the people who live in the beach houses had their lights on and for the first time I could see inside.

Man.

Some of those houses are thebomb.com. 😉 Hey Sister Shea! 🙂 ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ How’s the blog coming???

I would rather live there on the beach than Beverly Hills. Beach communities are the Best IMHO.

So, I stopped a couple of places along the way, found a big hefty bag of recycleables but left them because I couldn’t do anything with them before I went to court, but ultimately pushed back to Samo because I had to get up early.

I passed a peaceful, pleasant night and woke up to seagulls and the sound of running water. What could be better than that?

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On the train ride home from court there were some foreigners speaking their language and I eavesdropped trying to place it. I knew it was German, but I don’t really like German and tried to make it French. But when I asked, I was told they were from Germany.

That’s about all I can think of. I have another sort of political blog I wrote in my notebook, but the passion for the topic has gone and it’s never fun writing about anything that you are not passionate about. Like this blog right now. I don’t have anything else to say, so I’m just going to pray the peace and the blessings of Allah forever be upon you all and I’m going to get back to trying to prepare a hardcopy for you.

السلام عليكم

الله أكبر

I just had to mention while I was proofreading this, Aunt Kizzie’s reminded me of this catering truck I saw one day. Across the back they had written, “No disrespect to your Grammy, but we got Grammy.” LOL

 

 

And She’s Gone….

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

As-Salaamu ‘Alaikum Beloved and Beautiful Asiatic Black Bebies!

Well, it’s official. For L.A. anyway, Summer is gone.

I knew when I was sitting on the pier this morning and 8:00 came and it still looked like this:

 

The tourists have gone back to Nebraska. LOL

But trip this little bit. Yesterday, I went to see the Sunset as usual, even though I was at the Library charging my phone and really was trying to miss it but I found myself racing it to the beach right before Sunset, and I saw this Muslimah with her three boys. The boys had chingy eyes and I had never seen anybody who looked like them before.

So, I asked the Sister “Where are you from?” And if I remember correctly, she said Kazakstan. Or something like that.

One of those white Muslim countries that used to be a part of the Soviet Union (USSR) before they invaded Afghanistan and went head up with Osama bin Laden and the Taliban.

You see what happened to them. No more USSR.

And now America is up against the same enemy.

Watch what happens…

I’m glad. America has it coming and the evil world of the devil Caucasians is fuel for the fire of Hell.

I haven’t checked my favorite website lately. Let me see what is up.

www.TheReligionOfPeace.com

This is my favorite part.

Pakistan: 26 DeadOther Recent “Misunderstandings
of Islam”
2017.07.25 (Afghanistan)
A man is beheaded for sorcery by religious radicals.2017.07.25 (Mali)

A child and three others, some elderly, are slaughtered by Jihadists.2017.07.24 (Burkina Faso)

Ansarul Islam members murder five innocents in three villages.2017.07.24 (Pakistan)

A suicide blast outside a business park kills over two dozen.2017.07.24 (Nigeria)

Fedayeen suicide bombers claim eights souls at two displaced persons camp.2017.07.24 (Afghanistan)

Thirty-five lives are snuffed out by a massive suicide blast along a street in a Shiite area.

Christians act like they’re so innocent. pffffff They are the ones who started the whole thing.

But, I remember one time, I think it was on this website, there was an article about the Red Cross or some other Christian so-called charity, “feeding” Muslim refugees from some war-torn country and the Christians were calling the Muslim refugees ungrateful for refusing the pork sandwiches the Christians were trying to poison them with.

It’s all about perspective.

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But cheah. Summer is over. I got my beach back. I even drew my first drawing of the beach this morning. As you can see from above, I’m going to have to go back and fill in the blanks with the pix. But homeschooling Ibnana taught me that sometimes, a lot of times, it’s easier to learn how to do things or just to learn period when you teach it or approach it from a child’s point of view. So that’s how I approached my drawing.


I had a lot of fun laughing at the tourists. White people are so stupid.

I overheard this one devil with his two teenage sons as we were watching the sunset and overlooking the bike path. The eldest of the two sons remarked that the bike path goes all the way to Redondo Beach and the airport.

His father agreed, saying, “Yeah, I’ve ridden it. It’s not that hard. I rode all the way to Venice!”

ROFL For those of you unfamiliar with L.A. Beaches. Venice is the beach right next to Santa Monica where we were. It’s walking distance.

Then, one time I overheard a group of devils about to hit the Promenade and one of them said he wanted to eat at “Chipottle” LOL ROFL

Devils are so funny.

Summer vacation went by so quickly. I mean, I remember how annoyed I was when the swarm first arrived. But now that it’s gone, I kind of miss it. I mean, I’ve grown accustomed to the crowds and now it’s kind of boring.

But, upside is the stores are stocked with Back-to-School products. I bought a composition book for a dollar. And In Sha Allah, they’ll still have the crayon/colored pencils I like when I get my check.

If not, I visited this Art Store yesterday and he has ERASABLE colored pencils. I don’t think I’ve ever seen that before. But it’s like an Art Center. They have “workshops” every weekend where they serve a light meal and everybody paints whatever the center tells you to paint.

I would go, but I want to paint what I want to paint. I’m not that type of artist that likes to compete with other artists. I just do me.

So anyway, let me tell you about something that I didn’t like so much.

You know how when guys like you, they’re mean to you sometimes?

I hate that. It’s so annoying.

Well the HNIC at the Club is feeling me. I know because I would be feeling him too if I wasn’t Beaux’s. But he’s old. I mean, he’s my age, maybe a little older, but why you gotta be hunched over and stiff. He’s tall and cute but OLD. He looks like he can’t move. And that is a definite turn-OFF! Get in shape, Bubba.

So anyway, whenever we have meals, I always eat by myself in the Ladies’ courtyard and they don’t like that. But you have to keep in mind that I’m a Muslim and we have an entirely different culture.

Men and women do not socialize. Much less eat together. Eating can be very sexy so to keep any type of indecencies from occurring, Muslim men and women eat separately in social gatherings like this.

So yesterday, the HNIC decides he wants to give me a hard time and tells me I have to eat in the dining room with everybody else. I can’t take the plate in the courtyard. I protest and say, “They eat on the other courtyard.” But he’s not having it. I thought about just putting my plate back and leaving. But I don’t get my check until the tenth and I didn’t even want to THINK about fasting that long.

So, I do not eat in the dining room. That would be going too far against our rules. In the Nation of Islam we are instructed not to eat nor drink with Christians.

So, I go on the “men’s” courtyard find a bench next to a corner and sit cross-legged facing the corner and proceed to eat my meal with my back facing everybody else.

I know I looked crazy but I didn’t care. There were devils and they are savages. I couldn’t eat with them.

Let me tell you what I heard going on behind my back.

The devils took every opportunity to call the Black people Niggers. They were talking about “Nigger Power” and I know it was just because of me. I’m a Black Nationalist somewhat and just give off that RBG vibe naturally.

But nothing they do surprises me. The first time a devil called me a Nigger, it really hurt. But now I’m like teflon. I kept eating.

So nobody got upset at the devils calling us Niggers unless that’s why the fight broke out.

This Sister and a devil woman started fighting. I still didn’t turn around. But I think the devil was getting her clock cleaned because I heard her tell the HNIC, “Why aren’t you doing your job?” (Breaking up the fight, I guess). I did hear him say something but it was over by then.

I tune out stuff that discomfits me. I know it was all for my benefit. So, I just ignored the whole thing and went on like nothing was going on.

But devils are known for breaking the peace of the righteous. So next thing I know, some devil comes right by me. Then another one. Then another one. I just kept eating.

They can’t bother me anymore. TEFLON.

I went and got seconds and defiantly took it in the Ladies’ courtyard and ate there.

When I finished, I walked right past the HNIC and took my plate in the kitchen.

He didn’t say NOTHING.

So, we’ll see what happens today.

After I left, I went to the Library, charged my phone, read a book I don’t want to tell you what it was about. Saw the Sunset. Went back to the Library. Felt really pensive thinking about Zawji and skipped the Promenade and the Pier and pushed to an old peaceful spot.

I was chilling there, eating an apple and this Brother walks by. It’s rare to see regular, normal looking Brothers, so I greeted him and he replied. He asked me could he ride my bike to the store.

He was serious.

I didn’t even know what to say.

I mean, of course, I wasn’t going to let him. I got my street smarts in New Orleans, where they play CUTTHROAT! So, he could have been just as honest as the Blackman is by nature, but I couldn’t take any chances with Lu.

So, I was like, “No, you can’t ride my bike to the store.”

He said, “I’ll bring it right back. I’m an assistant manager on the pier and I just gotta get some stuff from the store. I’ll give you $5.00.”

He was so innocent. But I was like, I don’t know you and we are not teenagers who live on the same block.

I told him my bike is worth more than $5.00.

He said, “What you think I’ma steal your bike?”

I said, “Yes. I think you are going to steal my bike.”

He could get on my bike with every intention of returning it and then rethink the whole thing while he’s gone and I never see him nor Lu again.

He said, “I could hook you up on the pier, wristbands and passes and everything.”

I said, “My bike is worth more than wristbands and passes.”

Then he was like, “Okay, okay, but you don’t really think I would steal your bike or you would have grabbed it so I couldn’t jack you.” As he walked away.

I yelled, “IT’S LOCKED!!!” and we both laughed.

But that was that.

I don’t know why but everybody wanted to come be by me yesterday. You know I’m the hotspot but dang! It was so annoying.

I’m thankful I got a good night’s sleep though. Al Hamdulillah!

I woke up at like five and went to the Pier to see the Sunrise and it was magnificent.

That’s when I noticed that Summer is over when there were no tourists.

Then I pushed to the Club and here I am.

Grateful for life and a good life with lots of fun and excitement, everything I need. Good health. Peace and Contentment. Righteousness and Truth. Food, Clothes and Shelter. I just got my Tap Card! So, it’s on. I can go back to Malibu and ride the train again.

All Praise Is Due To Allah!

If The Civilized Lady Fails To Perform Her Duty What Must Be Done?

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

As-Salaamu ‘Alaikum Ma Beautiful Asiatic Black Bebies!

Do you know what it means to miss New Orleans? Sometimes, I get so homesick for New Orleans.

Feel me?

I wasn’t even going to write today. First, because the Club Computer Center used to be closed on Wednesdays so I wasn’t sure if I was going to be able to in the first place.

Second, because when I was in school, my mother used to make us go EVERY DAY and I used to want to miss school sometimes, just to be missed. But I felt guilty today. I feel like some of you really like to read what I write, so I’m not going to be selfish. K? 😉

We used to get Perfect Attendance trophies and awards every year in school. I didn’t care.

When I got grown and me and Ibnana used to go to Leimert every week, I would take some days off just to be missed and see who would try to take over my place as Queen.

Then I would come back and reclaim the throne.

It was fun, fed my hunger for power but Ibnana used to just note how “unpredictable” I was.

I think I’ve outgrown such pettiness and can get down to the business of writing for the purpose Our Saviour, Master Fard Muhammad, To Whom Praises Are Due Forever, Blessed Me With This Gift.

سورة العصر

1. وَالْعَصْرِ‌

2. إِنَّ الْإِنسَانَ لَفِي خُسْرٍ‌

3. إِلَّا الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا وَعَمِلُوا الصَّالِحَاتِ وَتَوَاصَوْا بِالْحَقِّ وَتَوَاصَوْا بِالصَّبْرِ‌‌

Chapter 103: Al-‘Asr — The Time:

Revealed at Makkah: 3 verses

English Translation of the Holy Quran by Maulana Muhammad Ali


In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.

103:1 By the time! —

103:2 Surely man is in loss,

103:3 Except those who believe and do good, and exhort one another to Truth, and exhort one another to patience.

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As your Muslim Sister, and as Muslims period, we are obligated to exhort one another to Truth, Patience and in another place it says Mercy. I try to do this through my writings as well as in my daily interactions and I pray Allah, you do the same.

In this way we will strengthen ourselves, our families, our communities and our NATION.

So, I’m just going to keep on going in the same vein that I’ve been writing and just relate the daily events of my life, In sha Allah.

Yesterday, after I left the Club, I found that park where they’re having the Summer Jazz Concert Series. The Best Word I can think of to describe it is quaint. It’s like a little suburban community park, but it’s cute and comfortable and safe.

They were playing Soccer and softball. 🙂

I thought about spending the night there. I didn’t want to stay there right then because I thought someone might report me to the police. You know how corny devils are. But I thought I might stay there a bit and just cool out and then come back when everybody had gone home.

But when I went to that other park, they were kind of doing the same types of group activities and they didn’t leave until ten!

The Sun had not even gone down yet.

So, I swung on the swings a minute. Tried to write. Tried to color. But deep down I think I wanted to see the Sunset. So right before it went down, I found myself racing it to the beach. I made it just in time. 🙂

It was nice, but it’s always nice at the beach…

So, I was kind of worried about where I was going to spend the night. I didn’t have anything solid. But I knew Allah Would Point Something Out To Me.

I just have a dollar, but I want to keep that to make sure I can get to court next month, but I really wanted some tea. I debated panhandling, but my pride.

I mean Our Beloved Messenger (May the peace and the blessings of Allah Forever Be Upon Him) talked about begging so badly that it is extremely hard for me.

I see people with signs (now most of them have a little sob story “Homeless veteran” or “Trying to feed my kids” or “No drugs, just need money for food…“) and then the new thing they say now is “Anything Helps.” There’s even this Muslim Sister and yesterday I saw her counting her money and thought, “All I need is $2.00 for a cup of tea. That should be easy to get. Or maybe I could just ask somebody to buy me a cup of tea…”

So, when I was in the bathroom, I saw this Muslimah with her children and I asked her if she had $2.00 but she barely spoke any English and did not understand. I think she thought I was offering her $2.00 because she kept saying “Thank-you.” So then I was like forget it.

I get greater enjoyment talking to Muslims from abroad and practicing my Arabic. I found out they were from Palestine!!! And there were so many things I wanted to ask her I couldn’t narrow it down to just one question to begin with. So, I just contented myself with the fact that I had met a Muslimah from Palestine.

I think most of them go to New Orleans. I met a gang of Muslims from Palestine in New Orleans. DJ Khalid is from New Orleans and his family is from Palestine. But I don’t think he’s a good Muslim. I mean, I’m not too familiar with his music, except for one song I used to like with a bunch of people I can’t remember but in the beginning of the video he had two women getting out of a limo with him and that might be okay in Orthodox Islam, which he probably is, but that is the OLD ISLAM.

We don’t do that in the New Islam. It’s One Man One Woman.

Our Beloved Messenger (May the Peace and the Blessings of Allah Forever Be Upon Him) wrote the following:

MUHAMMAD SPEAKS NEWSPAPER – January 11, 1974 (Page 13)

“There are a lot of crazy and nasty minded people in this world. Some of them write me (husbands and wives write me) asking for freedom to take over other women and other men.

“You stand today as much to be charged with committing fornication and adultery as you were before ever you heard Islam!

“I wish you would stay out of the category of fools!

Elijah Muhammad, Messenger of Allah”

http://www.noiwc.org/images/jan11pg7.pdf

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But I digress. I ended up going to a Coffee Bean and just asking how much for a cup of hot water. The employees were young and cool and he said it was free. So, I put a little milk in it, some sugar, cinnamon, chocolate and vanilla and it tasted just like Chai.

I chilled in there for a minute. I like Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf.

Starbucks is EVIL.

That’s Ester in their logo. The oversexed mermaid with her legs open over her head. SMH Just nasty. What kind of mermaid opens her legs period? And she got hers over her head!!!

If you have any decency and intelligence, Stay away from Starbucks!!!

If you notice, a lot of them are removing her picture from their signage. They don’t want you to know how filthy she is and they are for still worshiping her.

So, I go to the Coffee Bean and get some Jasmine Tea Chai when I have the ends. You can charge your electronic devices and use WiFi and the bathroom if you’re homeless like me.

Why did I hear this mother talking to one of her sons, she was ready to leave and you know how mothers act like they’re going to leave their children? (I hate that btw. It’s mean and disrespectful. You don’t have to scare your children to get them to obey you. Be nice. It’s nicer.) Anyway, he finally came and she said something like “See, you almost got left, and then you would be… HOMELESS!”

I was not expecting her to say “homeless.” I don’t know what I thought she was going to say. “Lost,” maybe. “All alone.” Or something. But I never knew the word “homeless” could sound so bad. I felt forlorn. But it made me see how most people view homelessness nowadays.

I guess being in it (homeless), I miss how it looks from the outside.

But to me, it’s not so bad. I mean, I get to wake up and the first thing I see when I open my eyes is the ocean, or the sky, or the Sunrise and to me that’s better than anything I’ve ever seen when I first opened my eyes when I had a home.

I guess it depends on your values. Some people value a roof over their head. I value ascetics. I’ve had roofs over my head, but they’ve never been as beautiful as the open sky, the stars, the clouds, birds and palm trees.

I guess, I’m spoiled now. I want a house, but I want a house where I can see all this stuff too.

So anyway, I stopped before I got to a more ideal spot because I saw an open bench and thought I had better claim it before someone else did.

There were three benches in a row. A homeless man was eating some chips or something on the far right one, and if I wasn’t so desperate, I would have just kept going, but I didn’t want to get to the end and they were all taken and then try and come back to this one and find it was taken too. So, I just took the one on the far left.

I sat there a minute and listened as he noisily ate his chips or whatever it was.

I’m supersensitive sometimes but when I’m really determined, I can tune everything out. So, that’s what I did and eventually I just laid down and went to sleep.

I woke up a little later and to my surprise, he was gone. I thought he was going to spend the night there.

I found out why he left later on in the night.

The sprinklers came on. SMH

I jumped up with my blankets and tried to move Lulu out the way but she wouldn’t budge. I forgot she was locked to the bench. So, I just left her and moved out the way. Luckily, she was out of the line of water 😉 but the bottom of my blankets and my skirt were pretty wet.

I thought about finding another spot, but I’ve never been intimidated or put off by water. I LOVE WATER. So, the sprinklers were only on for about five minutes, and the bench was just a little wet, so I just laid back down, wet blankets, wet skirt, wet socks and all and went back to sleep. LOL I thought maybe the water would turn cold and I would be too uncomfortable to sleep, but I have mind control over my circumstances and wasn’t even aware of the wetness.

I woke up early, like four a.m. which is the time I’m really used to getting up. In the Nation we pray at 4:30 every morning, so me and Ibnana used to get up as early as 3:30 sometimes.

The sky over the beach was so beautiful. I saw stars and just watched as Allah turned up the dimmer. 🙂

I tried to give names to the color of the ocean as it changed. It went from some color I can’t remember the name I gave it to Periwinkle. And I thought about when me and Ibnana used to watch “Blue’s Clues.” Ibnana is so good at impersonations. I think Zawji is too although I’ve never seen him do any.

You know, he went from Zawji to Beaux, which is kind of backwards. But whatever…

Oh! I just thought of the song I was trying to remember this morning.

“We are looking for Blue’s Clues…” LOL

So, I decided to be greedy and go back to The Coffee Bean. I still had my cup and thought they shouldn’t trip. It’s only water. And they have a COLD water jug right there for you to help yourself. It shouldn’t be too big of a deal that I prefer my water hot, right? Wrong.

I knew when I first walked in and saw the two Problem #2s that it was going to be a problem. Christians.

There was a Brother sleeping in one of the booths. And after I got my hot water and putting in my extras, Problem #2 #1 started banging on his table, “You got to go! I’ma call the police.”

So, I sit down and start writing in my notebook, “You got to go too. You can’t sit in here without buying something.”

“Why not?” I asked innocently.

“Call the police!” She said to Problem #2 #2. But I’m not afraid of her nor the police. In fact, why not wait until the police come? I’ve got nothing else to do. So, me and the sleep brother tried to ignore her and chat it up a bit.

But the police came in like 15 seconds!!! I was like Mm mm mm. Santa Monica rich devils.

There was a man sleep on the ground in front of the store and Problem #2 #1 told the police, “Him, him and her!”

So I kept writing and the police chose to single me out. “Come on, Ma’am. (I’m starting to hate when people call me “Ma’am.”) You heard her.”

But I was writing about how badly Christianity has poisoned Black people into the love of our enemies and the hatred of ourselves, so I just said, “Okay, I’m almost done.”

Meanwhile, the sleep Brother was really taking his time.

But eventually, I finished my paragraph and I shouted, “Jazakallah!” to Problem #2 #1 as I stormed out the restaurant.

She was the worst out of the two. I tried to be nice and give them my website. I heard her talking behind my back after #2 #2 gave me my hot water and I went over to the concession stand.

“What’s she doing now?” #2 #1 asked evilly.

“She’s writing something down.” 

So, I finished and gave a “flier” to Problem #2 #2 while Problem #2 #1 was hairy assing the sleep Brother.

After I had sat down, I heard #1 ask #2 what I had given her. She told her. And #1 said, “She ain’t got no website!”

It amazes me sometimes how filled with Christianity poison and hatred of self our people are. The sleeping Brother and I were talking about how differently she would have treated us had we been white.

Anyway, I finally left and the sleeping Brother followed me out the store. Neither one of us had anything particular to do and he commented about Lu.

“Is that your bike?”

I felt like playing with him. I mean, who else’s bike would it be?

“Nah, I’m just using it...”

“How you do that?”

DUMB ASS. Of course, It’s my bike! Doesn’t it look like my steez? Jeez!

“Nah, she’s mine.”

So then, we start watching as the police and this lady from Department of Mental Health start talking to the man sleep on the ground.

In New Orleans, they have teams that go out and collect information on the homeless and they give them houses!

So, I went and asked the DMH lady if they help homeless people get housing here.

She said, they refer you to “resources.” And I’m just about up to my neck in “resources,” but I talked to her for a minute.

She told me to go to DMH and they could get me a social worker, blah, blah, blah.

I told her I can’t take medication.

She said, “You don’t have to!”

I was like, GTFOH! I been diagnosed for twenty years. You can’t fool a Muslim nowadays, Bih.

But she insisted. I told her I knew where the place is but took the paper she gave me. Upside is, she told me about a place I can take a shower on the weekends. The Club is closed on the weekends.

I even thought about actually going to DMH. But I don’t know if I want an apartment.

I mean, it would be so BORING.

I did it for a little while when Ibnana first went to go live with ______________.

And I was bored and depressed out of my mind.

Cooking dinner for one is THE most depressing thing in the world.

So cheah. IDK

When I went back over to Lu and the sleeping Brother, he had put on some sunglasses and was smoking. Like trying to impress me. :/

I said, “You smoke?” Disgustedly.

Then I thought he put it out. So kept talking.

“You homeless?”

He didn’t like his living situation, prolly with Ma Dukes.

Then he started smoking again and I bounced.

I told him I don’t like smokers and ran away.

I went to the pier and OMG The ocean is beautiful from near and from afar. I sat in my favorite spot and just watched the waves break. Then I went on the other side and it had cleared up and was just beautiful. I saw all of the houses in the hills and wondered what street you take to get up there. I know it’s only one.

So then I came on to the Club.

Supper yesterday was so good. They had beef stew with rice and salad. I just had the sauce from the stew. But the rice was like rice pilaf rice and the salad had Kalamata olives!!!!!!!!!

I started to get some when I went to the Farmer’s Market, but you know how sometimes, stuff is so good it scares you off? So, I just got some feta cheese stuffed green olives. But next time… In sha Allah…

I hope Supper is good today too. In Sha Allah it will be. I’m thankful either way.

So, my phone wouldn’t charge when I plugged it in but I had to go back to the place where I got it today and the Brother who gave it to me is my exes doppel and I came up on a new charger. LOL At his expense…!

I love going to the DPSS office. It is Liit!!! Zimbabwe works there and he seems to have the best job. I mean his job is to give people money! What could be better than that?

Comedians make people laugh. Thats the best job! If you do it in a decent and intelligent, righteous and approved manner. Most African American comedians make jokes about other African Americans. That’s mean.

Islamic humour is witty and I still feel guilty.

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I also went to Subway on Monday, and Our Saviour’s Doppel was in there making everything wonderful for me. It trips me out because sometimes His Doppels curse and drink and all kind of stuff I try to do too. But I can’t because I’m a Lady.

So, He was complaining about all the things I was too shy to and as He left He said He was going to complain to the corporate headquarters or something and I took that as my cue.

I immediately went to the website and wrote a scathing email about what bad service they had at that restaurant.

They replied today and offered to send me some sandwich tickets.

I know they just do that to try and shut you up. So, I replied telling him his downplaying of the situation will not work and told him what still needed to be done.

I thought about refusing the tickets until I was satisfied with his reply but niggas is broke!!! LOL

We’ll see if he responds. I doubt it. I hope he really sends the tickets, but I won’t be surprised if he doesn’t. Remember the Good Samaritan Devil and the fictional dollar in the basket? :/

That’s all that’s going on in my little life. It seems so boring to me right now, but I’ve had that feeling before and when I went back to re-read it, it was interesting. So, I hope you’ve had the same experience and I haven’t bored you.

Oh, yeah. I don’t think Beaux wants me to tell you but Master Fard Muhammad, To Whom Praises are due forever, does and He Trumps Beaux.

So, yesterday, I tried to send him the video again after I had edited it down to ten seconds, but my phone still wouldn’t send it.

I got pissed at HIM and sent him a crazy text. Hey that has a nice ring to it. When you send somebody a text that seems like you have split personalities, let’s call it a “crazy text” LOL

Anyway, I wrote something like, “I tried to send you a video so you will know it’s me, but my phone won’t let me. So, I’m going to send you an e-mail In sha Allah and then you can stop playing games, Jamal.”

He told me nobody calls him “Jamal” but me and his mother.

So….. stay tuned.

One more thing. There was a bit of drama at the club today. You know I’m kind of aloof, right?

Well, I was sitting in the laundry room waiting for somebody to come and take their clothes out the machine so I could wash mine and then this devil man comes and says to himself, “Some lady’s gonna be mad at me for taking her clothes out but I’ve gotta wash my clothes.”

So, I’m the only one in the room and then this crazy Brother comes in and starts asking me if I took the clothes out. I said, “No. I didn’t.” Then he asks me if those clothes are mine. I said, “No. They aren’t.”

I’m like. Shit. If he/she had taken the clothes out in the first place, he wouldn’t be standing there wondering what was up. I’m not snitching.

So, then he goes and tells that I’m sitting in the laundry room with the light off and the door closed. I was trying to sleep!

Then I’m like, Forget it. I had that other stuff to take care of with my phone and whatnot, to be waiting around for somebody.

So, I get my clothes and walk out. Then this big ass devil lady comes getting all up in my face, “What were you doing in the laundry room?”

I’m thinking, “Bitch, you ain’t my momma get the fuck out my face!”

But I just said, “Excuse me.” And tried to pass her.

She moved and kind of bumped into me so I couldn’t pass her.

“Is it your turn to do your laundry? What were you doing in the laundry room?!?!?”

“Who is you, Bitch!” I think. But I don’t say anything and eventually she moves.

So, I put two and two together. This must be the crazy Brother’s white bitch and he told her on me. LOL

So, I went and put my clothes back on, resigning myself that I’m just going to have to wash them tomorrow. And decided I better tell somebody before things get out of control and I lose my laundry privileges over some bullshit.

So, I told the HNIC and he was cool.

And that was that.

You know I was thinking earlier that it really is a shame that so many Brothers think white girls are so much better than Black girls that they expect the Black girls to compete with their white devil girlfriends.

Nigga, if you only knew.

24 Little Hours

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

As-Salaamu ‘Alaikum Ma Beloved And Beautiful Asiatic Black Bebies!

I had a wonderful day yesterday and I pray you all had just as wonderful a day as I did. It started out wonderful and ended even more wonderful!

You know how I missed the Sunrise, right? Well after I left “The Club” (I call it the “Club” now instead of the Center because I overheard the receptionist on the phone talking to potential new members and she was telling them that we aren’t accepting any new members until next month. Which made me feel like I was part of an exclusive club that only a certain privileged few were allowed to enter. 

Nevermind that they don’t really help you find housing and after they get you on their list [which I know they give over to donors], you’re pretty much on your own. But, I am extremely grateful for all of the resources available to me. And consider myself very lucky to have a place like this to spend my time. Allahu Akbar!)

… I went straight to the beach. I went down the Promenade just to see what was cracking. I like to ride up the Promenade and ride down the beach. I stopped at this spot where the founder of Santa Monica used to sit every day and watch the Sunset.

I think it is the nicest point of view to see the Sunset and yesterday was exceptionally beautiful. There is a monument to him where you can sit without being observed by all the passers-by. I had passed by the spot scores of times before I ever noticed it.

I took so many pictures yesterday because I thought it couldn’t get any better but it stayed and kept getting more beautiful until the sky was gray and the color from the Sun was completely gone from the sky.

It lasted much longer than the actual Sunset.

It was so beautiful that I didn’t mind all of the people who came and crowded my spot to witness the wonder of Allah’s Creation.

I have an uncanny talent for finding “the spot.” I find a spot that no one is paying attention to and within five minutes it’s swarming with people. Depending on my mood, I may get annoyed and go find another spot, or I may just take it all in stride and offer to take pictures of people so they can all be in the photo. 😉

I made a video too. It’s uploading onto YouTube. I’ve decided to go back to an old way I had of uploading videos since I don’t have my laptop anymore. It just takes forever. So whenever it’s finished, I’ll try to catch up and add the many videos I’ve taken to enhance your reading, In sha Allah.

OMG! Why when I was on the Promenade I decided to look into Champs for “old times sake?” There used to be a “Champs” in the Beverly Center when me and Beaux used to work there and I seem to recall buying all of our kicks from there.

Anyway, there is a store right next door to Champs that I’ve always admired the outfits in the display window but never went inside. I felt like I wasn’t supposed to because the outfits are rather revealing.

So, I went into Champs first and they have the best selection of cute tennis shoes than any other the other athletic gear stores I’ve been in (Adidas, Converse and Foot Locker). I haven’t been in the Nike store or Foot Action yet. But Champs is cool because you can get any brand there and their selection of cute shoes was the best.

But I had never seen a $200.00 pair of tennis shoes before. I have expensive tastes and the shoe I picked up was $200.00. It was the same style I had seen at the Adidas store but I wasn’t looking at prices back then. At Champs, you can’t miss the price tag. It’s right there, like BAM! LOL

So, after I left Champs, I was drawn into the store next door. I kind of don’t want to tell you the name because the clothes in that store were so slutty. But I LOVED it! LOL

I mean, when you’re married, why you can’t dress like a slut at home for your Zawji’s eyes only? For real though?

Those clothes were so cute! But every time I pulled an outfit out to get a better look, it was always slit on the side, or the midriff was missing or something equally as slutty. I was embarrassed every time! LOL But I couldn’t stop looking. SMH

I couldn’t believe somebody actually designed and made those clothes to be sold and for someone to BUY!!!

It wasn’t long before I found the cutest outfit in the entire store, but I didn’t have anything else to do so I kept looking.

I made a joke with the salesgirl after finding a green and white short in the front, long in the back dress that she was returning to the stock. I said, you can buy it and wear to church on Easter. LOL

You know those women in churches dress like thots. Not so at the Temple of Islam. We will give you something to cover up with. You won’t be sitting in front of our Minister trying to tempt him and disgracing the True House of Allah (God).

Then some sequins caught my eye. And I like sequins so I pulled it out and why was it a purple, gold and green dress. I immediately thought Mardi Gras and had to take a picture.

I did even better and went Live on Facebook. Let me see if I can post the video or a link. BRB

Gotta click “Watch on Facebook” if you want to see the dress.

So, after I had looked at all the slutty clothes, I went back to the best outfit in the whole store (it reminded me of Forever 21 but sluttier LOL) and I thought, “You’re not going to buy it, but why not try it on??? Hee hee hee”

So, I’ve learned that alot of times, clothes can look cute on the hanger but it’s a totally different story when you actually put it on, and vice versa.

There used to be this company of male designers in Leimert and one time I was at their headquarters and this Brother showed me this dress. It looked like a big denim sock with the foot cut out. LOL And I was like, Ewww, this thing is ugly. But he convinced me to put it on and it looked so good. It was stretch denim and hugged every little curve I had back then. LOL I didn’t show him but it just illustrated to me that you have to try every thing on before you buy it because it might not look right once you get it on, and vice versa.

So, this outfit was so cute. It was a black, low v-neck, spaghetti-strapped leotard that was overlaid with heavy lace. The lace continued where the leotard ended and it was like a see-through ankle-length black lace dress.

So, yesterday after I finished the blog, I sent Beaux a song.

Because remember he had sent me that text saying he had no idea who I was?

I wasn’t ready to tell him yet so I sent the song and even I was kind of annoyed that all she says is, “Me” or something but doesn’t say who “me” is. Sorry Beaux, but I wasn’t ready yet.

So, when I tried on the outfit, I made a video and decided that was how I was going to let him know it was me, right? Wrong. When I tried to send it later on that night, my Obamaphone wouldn’t let me attach the video. 😦 I even trimmed it until it was half as long (about 14 seconds). I tried to take a screenshot, a little. Not really. I mean, I might still try and do something with it, but my battery was dying so maybe later today, In sha Allah. Maybe if I edit it down to ten seconds…

So, why when I went into the dressing room, they were all empty, but when I came out there was a line? I told you I always find the hot spot. Hell, I think I am the Hot Spot!”

Then, I give my outfit to the saleslady and go to leave the store. When I look at the place on the wall where the outfit was, why were there none left? And there had been about four or five of them!

I wish I could post the video (kind of, but not really LOL) so you can see how cute it is, but I’m in it. LOL Sorry

So, then I went to see the Sunset.

After the Sunset, I was in a oh wait, let me see if it finished uploading BRB

I might post the pictures too.

So, then I found out I had more food stamps than I thought. Oh, tell me why is the picture on the California EBT card, the place in Malibu where I almost drowned? Actually, it’s the place I was trying to get to when I almost drowned. :/

But that just goes to show how beautiful it is. I would post a picture but this computer won’t let me. Maybe later on my phone, In sha Allah.

Just click here.

I know it’s the same place because, if you look closely, you can see the Paradise Cove pier.

So, to celebrate the food stamp “surplus” I decided to go get some ice cream. And I really like Ralph’s better than Vons now, because Ralph’s says “Thank you, loyal customer” or something like that, and that makes me feel appreciated. So even though Vons is closer, I rode all the way back to the Club to go to Ralph’s, which is right down the street and who makes me feel like they appreciate my patronage.

There is also this park I found out about and wanted to find, just because I’m homeless and parks are one of the few places (public) homeless people can go without being hairy-assed. LOL

They are having a Jazz Summer Concert Series next month and I wanted to go until I saw out of all the four acts, there is only one BLACK person! In a JAZZ Concert Series! That is disturbing. So, I probably won’t go even though one of the groups specializes in New Orleans jazz. I know it’s just going to piss me off.

So, I got some ice cream and tried to find the park. I couldn’t find it but I did find the Santa Monica Arts Center, where there are all these fine art galleries. They look so expensive. They have auctions. Rich people live in Santa Monica, I’m discovering.

So, since I couldn’t find the new park, I went to an old park I really like that has a Library, and it’s so crazy because it’s only about a block away from Santa Monica College (where “The Parkers” and everybody else who lives in L.A. went to college LOL) but I never knew there was a public library right there.

Anyway, I got to listen to basketballs, which is one of my favorite sounds. I love the way basketballs sound when they bounce. I especially love the sound of the “swoosh” when it’s nothing but net. This court was outdoors, but the sound of tennis shoes as they squeak on the court makes me feel some kinda way.

I read Miles’ autobiography and he liked the sound of basketball games too. He mentioned how quiet it would get in the gym when the ball traveled from the shooter’s hand to the time it made or missed the basket.

The sound of the rim when the basketball hits it (brick) is like scratching a chalkboard to me almost.

I should have stayed at that park. I had a premonition that it was time to find a new spot. When you’re homeless, you have to keep it moving. But I had grown accustomed to my spot, so back I went.

I still felt like riding around, and took the long way “home.”

I went down Pico towards the beach but had to turn off when I neared a place that held bad memories for me.

I turned down 14th Street and why did I come across a cemetery!?!? For some reason, Allah likes me to visit cemeteries, so when I saw the gate was wide open, after visiting New Orleans, where they lock the cemeteries so they can charge you for tours, I had to go in.

It was pitch black and so creepy and scary! I LOVED it! There were tall trees lining the path and they overshadowed it making it even darker and scarier. But I had to.

I rode slowly through the cemetery. I don’t know what time it was, maybe about nine thirty. And all I kept thinking was,  “I’m surrounded by dead bodies.” That was a weird feeling. But I kept going. It was so quiet and peaceful, I thought about spending the night there, but it was too dark and I didn’t feel safe. I thought I saw somebody who had already decided to sleep there, but I think it was just a sleeping bag or some other bulky something or another. I didn’t stop to inspect.

So, I rode through and came out a little further down. It was so weird because I had been over there before on the back street. It was directly across the street from Santa Monica College but the entrance was on a side street. So going down the main streets on the side, you would never know there was a cemetery right there.

I thought it was a golf course when I had seen it before.

So, I’m still riding and I come across a park. And you know I love parks. So, I decided to ride through. I had been on the other side when I was feeling particularly bad about being homeless and don’t really have good memories about that side.

But this side had a gym and so I had to look inside and see all the Brothers.

It was tiny and there was only one Brother.

Disappointing.

But I rode farther into the park and discovered a “skate park”/”bike park”

I had never seen anything like what I saw before.

There was a deep pit that looked too deep to even climb out of but there it was.

So there were bikers all around and I love watching sports. I can’t help it. I know Sport And Play Keep One’s Mind off of Allah, so I try to stave off the attraction.

But they were right there. I do the same thing with skaters. I love the sound of skateboards almost as much as basketballs. And I like to sportscast, like we’re on T.V. It’s so fun. But I know girls aren’t supposed to do that kind of stuff.

So, I got out my camera and as soon as I got it going, he got out of the pit. :/

So, I rode around the park just a little bit more, then I pushed to the spot.

Why were there these devil teenagers RIGHT next to my bench, acting devilish?

I moved to another bench.

And got comfortable and eventually fell asleep.

Why did later, I feel someone tapping me? I thought it was the police, so I was like, “WHAT!?!”

It was some devil asking me if I needed any money, a dollar or something.

That’s the thing about being so conspicuous. Even though I was completely wrapped in my blankets from head to toe, (why did I pick up some white jail blankets at the Club? LOL) I know he recognized Lu. I’m kind of cute and I know a lot of these men would like to have me.

But I’m Beaux’s, so I was like, “All I need is for you to leave me alone!”

He would not leave, so I was like, “Just put the dollar in the basket on my bike!”

I heard him reach in and then get on a skateboard and leave.

After a while, I looked in my basket, but there was no dollar. Devils.

But, as if that was predicting what was going to happen later, at about 4:40 a.m., somebody else is tapping me on my shoulder. This time it really was the po-pos. I knew I should have stayed at the other park. :/

But I just went to the pier and looked at what a difference a day had made in the beach. Whereas, last night was beautiful, colorful and sunny, this morning was gray and drab.

But it was still beautiful! All Praise is due to Allah!

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You Can See Forever….

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

 

 

 

 

 

As-Salaamu ‘Alaikum Ma Beautiful and Beloved Asiatic Black Bebies!

How was your A.J. Day WEEKEND?!!?!?!?!?

A.J. Day was Saturday, but I was niggardly and didn’t buy the Lindt chocolate I was supposed to have to celebrate with on Saturday, so I extended it to include Sunday too and just had the first A.J. Day Weekend!!! Al Hamdulillah!!! I hope you had as good a time as I had! Allahu Akbar!

In college, I studied Journalism and as opposed to storytelling where you build up to the apex of a story, in Journalism, you are supposed to hit straight for the most important part of the story first, so I’m going to begin with the most important part of A.J. Day Weekend for me.

Last night, I had a good time on the Promenade. I noticed something that had escaped me before. Remember I told you about Sheharazad and the other Arabian singer? Well, two more Arabian acts were there this weekend. A female and a live guitarist and drummer band.

They have by far the best and most popular entertainment on the whole Promenade and I told you over seventy-five per cent of the patrons are Middle Eastern. So you know I just love it there.

BUT what I noticed last night is that the Muslim women who are dressed like me (covered) know the songs, tip the performers and videotape the performances, but they NEVER dance.

The women who dance know the songs and do all the above, BUT they look like Americans. They don’t cover. They usually have on shorts and tank tops and look just like all other American women.

This struck me as kind of disappointing because I love to dance and I know how to dance like the women who dance, but I can’t because I am representing Islam and although I pick up on some Islamic terms in the music, I don’t think it is representing Allah and Islam in an entirely positive way.

Here is what I think.

The Muslim women know how to dance like the other women but we only do it in private.

I was reading a book I picked up for free at a giveaway at the Library. It was a book I had heard of but had never read. I stopped reading it after I was reminded why I try to steer clear of anything produced by devils.

But anyway, the book talked about two kinds of women: prostitutes and decent women.

That’s about all there is. Either you are one or the other.

The decent women cover and don’t dance in public.

The prostitutes come out half-dressed (or covered) and don’t carry themselves in a modest fashion, i.e. dancing in public.

I understand why it is best not to cross the line because one of the women who was dancing, did it in an acceptable manner (imo) but there was another woman who just looked slutty.

Another thing I observed is that the older women danced better.

I think it is because of experience.

But another thing that held the younger women back is that they are Americanized. I felt sorry for them because you could see they felt the pull of the culture but it just wasn’t in them like it was in the older women. When they tried to do the dances, it didn’t look as natural as it did for the older women.

So, I left the Promenade earlier than usual, and went to see what was cracking on the Pier.

I’m so thankful for Lulu. She makes getting around so much EASIER and more convenient. If I didn’t have her, I probably would have just pushed to the spot.

The Pier was cool. But at night, I like the Promenade better. The people are more refined on The Promenade because there are nothing but shops so you have to have some ends.

The Pier is more for children, with Pacific Park and whatnot.

The Pier at night is more beautiful than in the daytime, however.  And I like to “read” the lights on the ferris wheel. They’re different every night.

The Promenade is better for the performers. The patrons are more apt to tip since the Promenade is designed for spending money. At least, that’s been my observation.

The musical artists on the Pier seem to be there more for atmospheric background music accompanying all that water.

It’s interesting but The Pier seems to have it’s own type of music. It’s like world music and “meditation” type music. The musicians play foreign instruments like sitars and whatnot.

Sometimes it creeps me out because it is eerily close to Buddhism or at least it feels like it to me. But Islam is first and everything good in any religion originated with Islam – like Tai Chi and meditation, so I’m sure that that type of music is in there too.

So, I had a good time on the Pier and then decided to push to the spot.

I got there but didn’t feel like sleeping. So whenever I don’t feel like sleeping, I don’t sleep. I don’t care what time it is nor how long I’ve been awake. If I’m not sleepy, that means I don’t need to sleep.

I’m not taking sleeping pills just because I’m not sleepy and everybody else thinks I’m supposed to sleep.

If I’m not sleepy that means, I’m supposed to be doing something else.

A lot of people who suffer from “mental illness” don’t sleep at the designated times.

It has something to do with melatonin.

One of the first things the psychiatrist asks is “Are you sleeping okay?”

I know many people who stay awake for three to five days at a time.

If the doctors really wanted to help, they would see the connection between this length of time and the typically prescribed “72-hour hold” which is generally how long an episode lasts.

But Allah, Master Fard Muhammad, To Whom Praises Are Due Forever, Does Not Sleep At All. And we are Gods and Goddesses, so we should not think it is unusual for us to not sleep as well.

The dominant society just wants to slow us down and nothing except death is slower than sleep.

So, as we say in the Hip-Hop Community “Don’t Sleep” LITERALLY.

So, I was also feeling a deep longing for Beaux. (That’s my new name for Zawji. 😀 I’ve always liked that name for a big strong handsome man. Bo’s are always big, strong and handsome except for Bo Buchanon who used to be on “One Life To Live” (IMO) but he was one of the stars of the show.

I’ve like that name since “Bonanza.” LOL I’m sorry but I’m from the Wild Wild West and I can’t help it but I like cowboys. I used to like the theme song from that show. Let me see if I can find it. I liked “Little Jo” too. He died in the same hospital as I was giving birth to my firstborn. 😦 R.I.P. “Pa” Even though he was a devil.) Hoss was cool but ugly. I guess he was the DUFF.

 

 

 

 

Then one time I was coming home from New Orleans and I met this guy named Bo from Atlanta. He was big, strong and handsome. Man, I love that name. But I like to spell it Beaux, like they would in New Orleans. Or Beau, like they would in Paris.)

So anyway, I was really missing Beaux last night. And I haven’t really thought about him in that way and haven’t written too much about him either. So, even though when I was in jail, I had resigned myself to fall back, I decided to send him a text.

I didn’t really know what to say. It was like 11:30 and I debated whether to send it at all, since it was so late. But you know I’m crazy, right? So that’s never stopped me before. I just debated what to send and decided to just be honest and wrote, “Just thinking about you…”

Now, sometimes I get messages from other dimensions and I got one that told me he got my text. And I was happy so I sent an emoji blowing a kiss.

Then why did I get a text from him???!!!!!

I was like OMG!!! This is major! Although I didn’t really trip. I think I’m cool after all this time. I’ve been texting and e-mailing him for over three years and in all that time only got one response. (Which I don’t even think was from him. I had just gotten him fired from his job and he let Malik cuss me out LOL)

So when I got the text, I think I may have been in shock.

I wasn’t sure how I felt.

Usually I ask Allah.

But I didn’t think to ask last night.

Allah Told Me Don’t Say Anything.

So I didn’t.

Fake world A.J. replied and I want to hear from Beaux.

So, I let the music respond for him.

 

 

 

I felt so good.

Then this came on. But the Internet Gods were in an uproar because of his text and I didn’t hear it until this morning. Same message. Just delayed.

 

I went to sleep.

Allah Told Me Don’t Respond So I Didn’t Want To Make Being Obedient Difficult.

I saw a little ladybug crawling on the park bench I was going to go to sleep on. And I just played with him/her and thought about what had just happened.

I didn’t tell you what he wrote.

I guess I’ll put it for my and posterity’s sake. So when I’m rereading this in one, two, ten, twenty or a hundred years I won’t have to try and do the impossible and remember what he wrote. Although…. 😉

Anyway, He wrote, “I have no idea who this is.”

This pleases you haters. But I know that which you do not know.

I thought about things I could reply but Allah Is The Best Knower. And I submit to His Infinitely Wise Will.

Beaux knows exactly who I am. But he is not who sent that text. A.J. sent that b.s.. But Allah Is All-Knowing and All-Wise so I Hear and Obey.

I think I know what I’m going to reply, but that’s if my phone and the Internet Gods allow me to. LOL

I’ll let you know how it goes, In Sha Allah.

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Ordinarily, I would just leave the blog as it is but sometimes, a lot of times, I do things that no one but I understand, and then when I go back and read it later, I exercise my brain by trying to remember what I meant when I wrote what I wrote.

But, I don’t want to do that with this one.

So, I’m going to explain.

When I woke up this morning on the park bench in the park, and opened my eyes, I was met with the most beautiful sight in the world – a clear blue sky and sunshine.

That feeling has been with me all day.

I wasn’t even disappointed that I missed the Sunrise. Sometimes the Sunrise is not even that beautiful. But when I woke up this morning!

The first thing that popped into my head was the video I posted at the top. I know they’re devils but I grew up in America…

Anyway, when I went to type the blog, “On A Clear Day” was what Allah (swt) Seemed to Want me to post. But I had posted that before I think. At least, I know I posted it on Facebook.

So, at first I had both. Then I deleted the Clear Day.

But kept the title.

So to help you, who may not be as into music as I am, understand the relationship between the title of the blog and the opening video, as well as what a beautiful day I’m having (and hope you are too 🙂 ) I’m going to post “On A Clear Day As Well.” Enjoy.

I like this one better though 😉

Oh my God. One time I was at the World Stage and I was going to sing this and the trio started off so good (swinging!) and I got through the first 32 bars LOVING IT!!! Then someone came and said they had to close early. SMH. Only me….

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I was going to write about the Farmer’s Market in Samo this weekend, but there isn’t really too much to say except it was dope, better than dtla and I got some bomb food.

I have video of this singer I want to post later, In Sha Allah.

She was French and her guitar was dope.

But I really want to fill you in on what happened after I got out of jail.

I wasn’t going to say anything but when I wrote about what happened to my laptop, I think there might be some confusion. So, I want to relate what happened.

I got out of jail, didn’t have any money, or else I was going to buy new everything.

But since I didn’t have any money, I HAD to go back to the house to get the stuff I left (my computer and sleeping bag).

So, I go back to this quiet little neighborhood in the Malibu Hills and I kind of had a feeling I might run into the man who ran me out of the house.

I had on the same thing and I was on foot.

Sure enough, I see the car he was driving and he was following me.

I turned around and started walking towards his car. He keeps driving and passes me up.

So, I turn back around now that he’s gone and continue walking towards the house.

To make a long story short (it’s almost Suppertime 😉 )

I went to the house and he was out there with some more evil hateful devils and started recording me on his phone.

I asked “Where is that white girl?”

One of the other devils mockingly said, “WHAT white girl?”

So, then I was like whatever and started walking away.

The devil who ran me out the first time was still recording but get this. He starts reciting John 3:16.

I was like, “For real?” SMH

But I keep walking.

Then he repeats it. And I couldn’t take it anymore.

I said loudly, “THAT’S A LIE!”

A. God does not have a son
B. He is all-powerful and doesn’t have to kill anybody just to forgive your sins.

So anyway, I went around the corner, called the Sheriffs, and they came and got my stuff.

I just thought it was interesting that that devil would start quoting the Bible.

If you don’t think we are living in The Holy Spiritual War of ARMAGEDDON, you’ve got another “think” coming.

 

On Being Self-Sufficient

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

As-Salaamu ‘Alaikum Beloved and Beautiful Black Sisters and Brothers

As of 1:12 p.m. today, July 21, 2017, I have officially cut off every tie in my life except for Zawji.

Women are not supposed to be self-sufficient. Otherwise, I would have cut him off too.

We are the weaker sex and were made just for the purpose of helping out the Blackman.

They can be self-sufficient without us, like Allah, Master Fard Muhammad, to Whom Praises are due forever.

Say, He Allah is One. Allah is Self-Sufficient. He does not beget nor is He begotten. And there is none like unto Him.

That’s Surah Al Ikhlas. My translation. The Blackman can be Self-Sufficient. But it’s better if He has a wife to help Him.

The Blackwoman, on the other hand, was made to be dependent.

So, even though I can take care of myself, I still need guidance (help in making decisions).

Allah Created the Blackman with more powerful brains than us (Blackwomen) so we would be wise to find one who can lead and guide us and submit to his authority.

I’m Lucky because I know who my Zawji is. And even though we are not physically together, I still seek His Divine Guidance. Al Hamdulillah!

I took a picture yesterday that is a visual display of how I felt inside yesterday and still feel to some extent today.

I described it on Facebook as “melancolico” or however you spell it. I like it better in Portuguese.

I’ll post it later, In sha Allah.

Yesterday, I really wished I had a home to go to.

It’s fun being out and about but I have a dis-ease that is causing me some dis-comfort and when you’re sick, homeless is the last thing you want to be. There is no place for you to nurse your sickness. I just wanted to be alone and lay down and feel sorry for myself. LOL

But I have spiritual enemies that are very close to me and when you’re sick that’s when they think they can succeed against you.

It happened to Our Beloved Messenger (May the Peace and the Blessings of Allah Forever Be Upon Him) so, I am not above anything that happened to him.

I got kicked out of my little spot and although I could have gone back, I felt defeated and didn’t want to put myself in the same situation again.

So, I just slept outside in the park.

I can’t get a good night’s sleep out in the public like that because I can’t completely relax.

Then this morning the joggers woke me up at 5:30. SMH Morning people can be so annoying. LOL

I went and sat by the ocean and got to write and color and it was really peaceful. I debated whether or not I should go to the center. And I kind of regret that I didn’t stay there longer. But sometimes, we develop habits that can be difficult to break out of.

I wanted some coffee. Not that I’m addicted to coffee. It’s just that I’m addicted to having a warm drink in the mornings sometimes.

It makes me feel good.

It can be warm water.

I guess it’s a comfort food.

So, I left my cool spot. I regret it now, because they are so difficult to find. I’m in one now, Al Hamdulillah!

I think when I find these places and times, I’m going to stay until ZAWJI tells me to move. Not when I plan to.

Anyway, I was going to take the train to the HRC but the transit cops appeared out of nowhere.

I figured out why Lulu’s been so difficult to ride though. She just needed some air in her tires.

So, I got some and then pushed to the Center.

All of the HRCs are run by Christians and I do not trust them. They are borderline p-words.

I am so averse to the whole concept that I don’t even like to say the word.

Let me think of a way to tell you without actually saying it.

You know another word for a television show? Or a synonym for agenda?

That starts with a “P”

I am so against the whole concept because it’s basic training for the Christian army. It’s deceptive and evil and I cannot even put it into words.

I feel better now.

I’m just going to have to learn how to get by without the support and protection of my son.

He knew one day I was going to cut him off and I think that’s why it’s taken me so long.

But I cannot support him playing sports.

I had a friend who reminded me that Our Holy Qur’an Sharrieff says “This world’s life is naught but sport and play.”

Of course, I knew that. But I’ve always been into sports. My mother named me “Anet” pronounced “A Net” and I love basketball.

I did good for about eight years after I accepted my own (Islam) and did not watch nor discuss basketball at all.

Then I met a Brother “in the Nation” on Facebook and he got me interested again. It’s been difficult to turn it off since then. Hakim was about eight or nine then and although we didn’t watch it, we kept up with the scores and the Lakers won the championship that year and everybody was out in the streets partying and we went out there for a minute.

Now, he’s living with my infidel family and they’ve got him interested in things that we both know are haram.

I was hoping he was old enough and well-versed into the Teachings enough to withstand temptation.

But I had put him out before ever I had an episode.

I guess because Our Saviour, Master Fard Muhammad, To Whom Praises are due forever, Told Me I Was Doing A Good Job with him, it has been difficult for me to admit that he is completely off the path.

It started with his hair. I let that slide and although it’s not how I would like for him to wear it, it is not against guidelines.

Then he started wearing shorts and short-sleeved shirts that I never allowed. Shorts on a man is gay but I let it slide because he cycles. The youth know how to manipulate their parents to get their way but I never agreed with it. That was the first straw.

Then he didn’t want to get in the band at school. Muslims are known for having musical talent – like Angels.

And although, I am still up in the air about whether or not music is the “play” when Our Holy Qur’an states “This world’s life is naught but sport and play,” I really wanted him to play in the band.

Many times musicians are referred to as “players.”

Actors too. So maybe the “play” referred to in Our Holy Qur’an refers to the Arts period. Sport and Art. Unless it’s for a righteous purpose, I’m sure.

The Nation of Islam put on a play called “Orgena” back in the day. And used to have music at the Salaam restaurant. So, I guess if it is used for righteous purposes the Arts can be approved.

But I’m just going on. I’m having a difficult time trying to justify my son playing football.

It may seem like it’s not a big deal and I was going along with it for a while, just because I know it’s a quick way to make A LOT of money and I know that our Nation has a lot of building to do. But Our Beloved Messenger (May the Peace and the Blessings of Allah Forever Be Upon Him) NEVER used questionable means to gain funds.

I can’t go along with it. The ends do not justify the means.

I’m reminded of when my mother’s son first came out of the closet. I had not accepted my own (Islam) yet and he told me later that I would go back and forth in my support or disapproval of his lifestyle.

Well, eventually, I did accept my own and cut him and his abominable way of life off completely.

That’s what I see happening with my own son.

When he told me he wanted to play football… Let me think if I would feel the same way if he was playing basketball… Yes, because the bottom line is, His jersey would have the Name “ALLAH” and that would be a mockery to The Greatest and Most Powerful Human Being in the Universe, His Book, His Angels and All Who Believe in and Worship Him.

I am sorry I gave him that Holy Name.

Our Saviour, Master Fard Muhammad, To Whom Praises Are Due Forever, Gave me the name HAKIM. I was a baby in Islam, but I knew what it meant. I think I had looked it up because of Moesha’s neighbor.

In sha Allah, I’m wrong, because the Blackman has more powerful brains than I do. And Hakim means WISE. And ALLAH Did give me the name. But I don’t think so.

I’m cutting him off right here before it gets worse for me.

I am ashamed I gave him that Name. He is going to drag it through the mud and I don’t want to be associated with him.

I am reminded of the last Moorish ruler of Spain who lost the throne to Queen Elizabeth and whatever that man’s name was – Crusaders. He disgraced not just his family but the entire Muslim Caliphate.

That is how I feel.

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